ⁱ ᵏⁿᵒʷ 𝔟𝔢𝔱𝔱𝔢𝔯

(  @femiknifed-  )
            
            you're really trying to pull that thing on me right now. that--  what's it called?   'agony aunt.'   [  a half-hearted laugh that's more like a fond sigh comes from the ravenette, lifting her cheek briefly to glance mindy's way. she's soon settling back into the girl, though, breathing out in the comfort that comes from her hold. ]    really??   shiiiit. pressure's on. i woulda prepared a presentation or some shit if you warned me.  ( .. )    uhm, i dunno. it's like, i've been thinking a lot about all the complicated shit that. . .   mmmh. amber did a lot of fucked up stuff. especially to els. i wish i saw it back then and like, tried harder to stop it or stick up for her. she didn't deserve that shit. i wanna tell her i'm sorry but,,  words aren't enough for all that. i know it's stupid as fuck but. .   ellie's literally sunshine and fuck that bitch for trying to put her out all that time.
            
            /  crying over them rn but also,,  can't help thinking abt mindy rn referring to herself as aunt the same way rory calls herself mommy/mother,,,

WHO'S  THE  WORST,   @scarredhand :
            
            you'll  always  be  aunt  mindy's  favorite  tarantula.    {  with  a  seamless  ease  mindy  completely  bypasses  the  complaints  of  the  ravenette,   wrapping  one  arm  around  tara's  shoulders  to  pull  her  closer.  }   what  shit  are  you  worried  about,   babe?    ( .. )    fuck,   i've  been  influenced.    tell  me  what's  up,  though.   entirely.   i  want  a  full  youtube  break  down.

(  @femiknifed-  )
            
            you've gotta stop calling me that.  [  it's a half-hearted jest that proves tara isn't really tired of that goddamn nickname. she's just…   tired in general. but alas, she takes up the offer and leans her head against mindy's shoulder while pulling her knees up to her chest. ]   don't call yourself aunt, either. it's kinda weird.  ( .. )  i just..  i really don't wanna screw shit up. it's already like, a total fuckin' mess. 

(  @femiknifed-  )
            
            you can't be serious. you're literally incriminating yourself with every fuckin' word, mindy.   [  tara reiterates. this feels like a good time for all the payback and teasing she's been subjected to about ellie-marie. even though that's still far from over, and tara is far from admitting the truth  --  right now, that doesn't matter. there are details to be uncovered about mindy and rory. ]    i'm not bullshitting. i'm not doing that!   not about rory  /smiling/   of all fuckin' things. come on, let me see!!   [  it's to no avail, really. but tara presses herself against mindy, hands fighting to pry the phone from the girl. she channels all of her small but mighty power right now, grinning with mischief. ]    plans, huh?   like, bedroom plans??    [  she breathes out a giggle, shaking her head. ]    plans to see her 'cause there's totally something going on between you two??    mindy, be for real. c'mon.

WHO'S  THE  WORST,   @scarredhand :
            
            i  would  if  we  spent  time  together,    but  you  know  what  we  don't  do?   that.   we  spend  no  time  together,   none,   and  i  actually  have  no  clue  what  the  fuck  you're  talking  about !    {  kill  her.   kill  her  now,   dear  god  above,   and  then  make  sure  rory  NEVER  finds  out  about  this  conversation.   mindy  crosses  then  uncrosses  her  arms  as  she  watches  tara  make  up  her  mind,   forcing  that  grin  back  at  the  reveal.  }    bullshit.   you're  totally  bullshitting  me!   i  was  probably  like,   saying  something  about  bitchass  landry  and  how  he  leaves  his  shit  everywhere.   unsanitary.   she  likes  new  ammoooooHHHHNO  YOU  DON'T.    {  like  she's  gollum  with  that  goddamned  ring  mindy  pulls  her  phone  closer  to  her  chest,   eyes  narrowed.   }    i  have  private  stuff  on  here!    really  private  stuff.   like.   plans.

(  @femiknifed-  )
            
            you should like, ask her to teach you a thing or two about lying, 'cause you cannot be serious right now.   [  tara's brow is raised with curiosity, arms folded over her chest. the look in her eye is the biggest  'i-don’t-believe-you'  known to man. ]    you know what?   i caught her smiling just 'cause you entered the room the other day. rory never does that!!   literally never.  ( .. )    but if you're sure, you'll totally let me see your texts. come on, show me.

(  @femiknifed-  )
            
            she's not just some thing for me to sleep with!!   it's like, so much deeper than that. shut the fuck up, mindy!   [  oh, her face is burning. she probably looks like a fucking tomato right now. part of her wants ellie to see this, to be assured that she's not the only one with a tendency to blush to the point of embarrassment. the stronger part of tara wants to crawl into a hole and hide right now. the most she can do is cover her hands with her face, trying to soothe her awkward smile. until mindy's clap sounds through the air and makes her flinch to alertness, brow furrowed with a fond sort of annoyance. ]    'pop quiz'?   what is this, high school??    no, no. no way, mindy. i am not doing this with you right now.  [  she reaches out to deliver another shove to mindy's shoulder. ]     fuuuuck off!    literally, cut. it. out.   ( .. )    we talked about movies, like fuckin' always.
            
            /  I MISSED HER SO BAD !!   SHE'S EVERYTHING ACTUALLY !!!    we beat out the workaholic episodes in the end though bc look at us now !!

WHO'S  THE  WORST,   @scarredhand :
            
            you  wanna  sleep  with  her  so  bad  it  makes  you  look  stupid.    {  mindy  deadpans,   her  grin  beating  out  how  dead  serious  she  tries  to  deliver  the  'breaking  news'.    she  knows  it's  not  entirely  on  the  mark—   tara's  so  far  gone  for  ellie-marie,   it's  love  if  she's  ever  seen  it—   but  she  knows  her  best  friend.   throwing  the  word  'love'  at  her  will  make  this  much  more  difficult  than  need  be.  }    alright!   {  she  brings  her  hands  up,   clapping  once  for  tara's  full  attention..  like  she  didn't  already  have  it.  }    pop  quiz!   ellie-marie  brought  you  lunch  yesterday.   do  you  remember  anything  we  talked  about  while  she  was  here?    you  have  thirty  seconds.
            
            *    I'VE  MISSED  HER !!   workaholic  episodes  have  taken  too  much  from  us ,,  bringing  this  back  now !! 

(  @femiknifed-  )
            
            no i'm not!!   i'm not, i swear to—-   [  denial denial denial denial. despite the burning in her cheeks, tara's sheepish grin gives all away as she leans over to give mindy's shoulder a playful shove. it's the comment about the rumour that makes the ravenette's jaw drop. ]   fuck, no!!!  that's not what's happening!   els is like, way better than that. i mean not- -  not in a bad way just like. she wouldn't just be sleeping with me. uh-huh, sure!   we sleep in the same bed!!  but that's literally  / it /, mindy. friends do that all the time so drop it!!
            
            /  OH MINDY MEEKS-MARTIN BABYGIRL I AM SO GLAD YOU'RE HERE.  ( she should actually be worse!! )

WAKE  WITH  YOUR  MEMORY,   @scarredhand :
            
            how  could  i  not?    {  she  feels  painfully  obvious  when  the  question  winds  up  overtaking  her  common  sense,   pulling  her  lower  lip  between  her  teeth  in  an  effort  to  shut  herself  up.   it's  nice  to  have  a  friend,   this  she  has  always  known,   but  tara  is  even  more  different  than  ellie  can  comprehend.  she  feels  like  home.  }    i'd  say  you  could  move  in,   but  i  know  sam  would  kinda  flip  for  now.   just..  it's  on  the  table.   my  place  is  yours.   {  everything  about  her  is  tara's,  actually.   from  her  heart  to  her  hands  to  her  home  she  is  wholly  devoted  to  her  girl,  even  if  this  is  the  only  shade  of  gray  they  live  in  from  now  on.   her  nose  crinkles  as  she  giggles  at  the  question.  }     i  knew  you  had  it  in  you !!   cat  haters  are  NOT  protected  under  the  constitution  or  in  my  apartment.   sir  purrington  actually  makes  sure  everyone  leaves  with  a  new  appreciation  for  cats  :)    you  still  need  to  learn  all  their  names !!   i'm  sure  they  totally  love  you,   too.     you're  the  favorite  guest  around  here !!
            
            *    he's  done  more  for  the  community  than  any  government  official  actually ,,  also  "you're  my  safe  space,   she  knows  is  hidden  between  her  words  like  an  invisible  ink  poem"   SICKENING ??

(  @ghostends-  )
            
            you do?   [  her surprise is quick, escaping from her lips before she can bite it back. even if she had managed to contain herself to any extent, the way her lips curve into a giddy smile reveals pretty much everything she might've attempted to play off. one hand rubs the back of her neck, averting her eyes to the floor. ]   i mean yeah, i really like being here. with you. it's like, fun and safe and everything.   [  you're my safe space, she knows is hidden between her words like an invisible ink poem. ]     okay, uh-huh cool. that's totally cool. y'know i'm like, a lot more of a cat person than i ever thought i'd be. i should thank sir purrington and all the time i keep spending here for that. we're all cool as fuck.  :')    oh actually, do i need to get permission from your stuffed animal army too??   i think it's THEIR space i should be worried about cramping.
            
            /  he truly is the lesbian therapy animal isn't he

WAKE  WITH  YOUR  MEMORY,   @scarredhand :
            
            {  this  is  fucking  adorable.   ellie-marie  knows  tara  isn't  babbling  right  now  because  tara  NEVER  babbles,   but  whatever  this  is  may  as  well  be  what  her  heart  beats  to  from  now  on.  }   i  like  having  you  over.   {  she  ventures,   brows  rising  in  response  to  how  tara  seems  to  glow.   god,   rory  better  applaud  her  for  this  soon.   }     it's  nice.    more  than  nice,   i  mean,   but. . .  you  know.   if  sir  purrington  and  i  had  a  roommate,   i'd  want  it  to  be  you.    so  would  he.   he's  just  playing  it  off,   y'know.   because  he's  cool  like  that.   he's  like,   totally  obsessed  with  you   :)     
            
            *    sir  purrington  is  carrying  the  weight  of  every  sapphic  situationship  known  to  man ,,

WAKE  WITH  YOUR  MEMORY,   @scarredhand :
            
            uh-huh.   i  tried  reading  that  when  i  was  like,   twelve,   and  i  swear  to  god  it  straight  up  traumatized  me.   he  also  has  this  weird  thing  about  killing  off  kids,  but  i  think  i  can  handle  that  better  than  the  animals.    ( .. )    i'm  afraid  that  says  something  about  me.     {  as  much  as  ellie-marie  attempts  to  lighten  the  mood  she's  still  reluctant  to  lift  her  head  from  where  she's  tucked  against  tara,   unable  to  resist  wrapping  her  arms  around  her  moonlight.   that  little  amber  in  the  back  of  her  head  makes  a  fair  point:  tara's  got  every  reason  to  be  annoyed  by  her  oversensitivity.   a  piece  of  her  hopes  to  enjoy  this  as  long  as  she  can  before  tara  realizes  that,  too,   but  a  larger  portion  chooses  to  believe  she's  gonna  be  loved  regardless.  }    i  can  watch   'terrifier'   but  this  is  what  gets  me.   {  she  grumbles  regardless,   bringing  her  head  up  slightly  when  the  movie  is  shut  off.   guiltily  her  gaze  shifts  from  the  screen  to  tara,   mouth  opening  once  more  to  apologize  before  she's  cut  off.   }   i  love  you  more.   {  she  says  instead,   going  soft  in  the  way  only  tara  makes  her.  }    and  i   (am)   sorry.   i'm  like,   embarrassingly  upset  when  bad  things  happen  to  animals  :(    i  thought  i  was  gonna  be  better  with  you  here—  and  i  am !—   but  it's  just.   /rabies/!    you  know  who  didn't  have  rabies?   tramp.   or  that  dog  from  the  second  friday  the  thirteenth ! 
            
            *    we'd  do  it  together !!   we  can  go  down  as  a  team   <33  

(  @ghostends-  )
            
            like this and pet semetary?   we should write a letter to stephen king for this weird obsession with fucked up animals. should stick to sewer clowns and teenage girls at their fuckin' limits.   [  oh, ellie is absolutely hating this right now. the ravenette's brow creases in concern, turning her chin slightly to press a fleeting kiss to the top of her girlfriend's head. it's been pre-decided, tara loves this but she will not stand for the chance of her girl crying over a rabid dog. ellie's the girl with the softest heart  -  one of the reasons why tara adores her so. ]    fuck this. you can't hide from the tv, 's not any fun for you sunshine.   [  a free hand not wrapped around the blonde reaches for the tv remote, immediately shutting off the movie before its events can escalate to a point where ellie would be beyond saving. ]    i wanna have a movie night fun for both of us, okay??   and like, i wanna see your pretty face. can't do that if you're hiding away, as cute as you are when you're doing all that. lady and the tramp?   ( .. )    and  / don't /  start apologising, i swear els. i know we don't have to,,  you don't have to endure this either if you're uncomfortable, pretty girl. i love you.
            
            /  she's so me!!   ( i probably couldn't face down ghostface though. i'd give it a goddamn shot but,, )

WAKE  WITH  YOUR  MEMORY,   @scarredhand :
            
            {  tara's  reaction  brings  ellie-marie's  head  back  up  ever  so  slightly,   a  flash  of  concern  momentarily  breaking  her  alarm  before  she's  tucking  back  closer.   is  she  acting  like  a  baby  right  now?   probably.    is  she  taking  comfort  in  how  tara's  holding  her?   definitely.   she  can  feel  safe  while  also  worrying  about  the  dog  that  obviously  isn't  okay.   this  is  why  she  never  finished  pet  sematary.   }    i  don't  get  why  they  bring  pets  into  horror,    {  she  mumbles,   turning  her  face  to  once  again  press  into  tara.   }     we  don't  have  to.   really,  i'll  be  fine.    i  cried  when  binx  died  in   'hocus  pocus'..  i  can  just.   shut  my  eyes.    ( .. )    andmaybewecanwatchladyandtherrampafter ?? 
            
            *    she  can  face  down  ghostface!!   not  bad  things  happening  to  animals!!

WAKE  WITH  YOUR  MEMORY,   @scarredhand :
            
            oh ,,  that  makes  sense,   actually.   you're  more  cultured  than  i  am  when  it  comes  to  horror,  which  is  a  good  thing,   'cause  relationships  need  balance  and—  ohmygod,   do  you  not  know  bibble?   did  your  family  deprive  you  of  bibble?    {  ellie's  eyes  are  wide  with  an  alarm  unique  to  her  brand  of  dramatics.   she  knows  better  than  to  press  the  matter  quite  yet,   despite  being  confident  in  the  knowledge  that  tara  won't  grow  upset  with  her.   there  are  different  ways  to  approach  her  lover's  aches  and  pains  and  while  ellie  wishes  she  could  brush  her  thumb  over  each  of  them,   dust  them  away  into  ghosts  from  the  past,   she  can't.   what  she  can  do  is  be  there  when  they  return  to  haunt.  }    baby,  i've  gotta  show  you  bibble.   that  little  alien  guy  shaped  me !    /almost/  as  much  as  the  popsicle  jokes ,,   i  was  so  bummed  when  that  got  discontinued.   it  gave  you  something  else  to  look  forward  to,   you  know?   like,   i  remember  one  time  i  was  having  a  rough  day,   so  i  ate  a  popsicle  and  wrote  down  the  joke.    ( .. )   i  hope  you  know  you're  the  cool  one  between  us.    {  flustered  as  she  is  ellie-marie  tries  to  refocus  herself  on  what  doesn't  significantly  make  her  seem  as  lame  as  she  definitely  is,   leaning  into  tara's  touch  without  thought.   the  very  brush  of  her  fingers  in  ellie's  hair  is  healing.  }   mhm.   i  was  thinking  of  adopting  a  black  cat  next  'cause  of  that.   no  one  adopts  them  because  they  think  they're  bad  luck,   but  the  poor  things  are  just  misunderstood.   
            
            *   oh  they  are  so  soulmates ,,  tara  being  determined  to  get  the  popsicle  jokes  back  is  WIFE  BEHAVIOR !! 

(  @ghostends-  )
            
            sunshine, i haven't seen a barbie movie since i was like,, below double digits. i switched out the kid stuff for horror movies pretty early.  y'know, sam used to sneak around so we could watch 'em together and our parents couldn't say shit about it. not that they woulda given a fuck, probably.   [  brushing over her parents has been able to come with a little more ease these days, or perhaps she's still avoiding it. that's something they haven't hit on in therapy just yet. talking about ellie is a much welcomed conversation topic, though. tara glances down at the completed braid. it's the most attention she can offer to anything else  -  it's not long before she's intently latching onto ellie's every fucking word, eyes soft with nothing short of adoration. ]     who do i gotta call up to bring back popsicle jokes?   i'm serious. if you were like, their biggest supporter then they should bring 'em back just for you. we can totally make it happen.   [  tara will make it happen. somewhere in the back of her mind, she can hear mindy gagging and pointing a finger her way.  'down!  bad!'   nevertheless, the ravenette nods now and reaches out to gently tuck a loose blonde strand behind her girlfriend's ear. ]    uh-huh, i got it. so it sounds like we should appreciate black cats a whole lot more. fuck their misconceptions and misogyny.
            
            /  tara is listening. tara will listen forever.

WAKE  WITH  YOUR  MEMORY,   @scarredhand :
            
            speaking  of,   have  you  rewatched  barbie  movies?   they  don't  play  with  dolls  there.    which  is  kinda  weird,   actually,   and  a  little  bit  like  inception  but  not  really.    ( .. )    sorry.   yeah,   a  popsicle  stick!   they  used  to  have  jokes  on  them,   too,   but  i  guess  that  wasn't  super  popular  after  a  while  'cause  no  one  wanted  to  taste  a  stick  just  to  find  out  what  the  punchline  was.    {  the  freeness  with  which  ellie-marie  speaks  is  a  change  from  how  she  typically  attempts  to  police  her  eagerness  overall,   working  quickly  to  shift  that  hair  tie  down  her  wrist  and  grab  onto  the  end  of  the  braid  with  one  hand.   the  other  comes  up  without  a  word  of  complaint,   settling  around  tara's  middle  like  she  can  somehow  pull  her  closer.  }    's  a  common  misconception,  actually !!    people  used  to  associate  black  cats  with  satanism  'cause  of  witches,   which  is  also  a  whole  other  thing  that  basically  comes  down  to  misogyny  because  of  (course)  it  does,    and  never  saw  them  as  anything  besides  bad  luck.   the  ones  i've  met  are  super  cuddly,   like  you  are !  
            
            *    ellie  taking  this  opportunity  to  rant  about  cats ,,  baby  what  are  you  even  talking  about  <33 

(  @deputyguts  )
            
            i want to. . .  i really want to. she deserves that, y'know?  i messed up with her before but she's,,  yeah. special. and like, important to me. thanks for bringing her into the world.

she's  very  special.  one  of  a  kind.  i  think  you're  the  only  one  who  gets  her  right.  

(  @deputyguts  )
            
            i don't plan on letting her do that anytime soon. or ever, actually.  ( .. )   i dunno where i'd be without her. she's like, really really special.

(  @deputyguts  )
            
            okay, no no no wait. hold on.  [  tara clears her throat, raising one hand into the air. ]    the fact that i'm laughing proves that ellie's gonna love it. like a lot. she fucks with the corny stuff--  probably gets it from you.

(  dewey  shakes  his  head,  slightly  dejected  by  tara's  laughter.  )  stupid  idea,  right?  i  knew  it  was  corny.  even  for  ellie's  standards.

(  @deputyguts  )
            
            i'm not--  [  the way she snickers counteracts her excuse before she can even get it out. her eyelids shut as she pulls herself together. exhaling a breath, she notably chooses not to open her eyes again. ]    i'm not laughing. 'm not.

(  @deputyguts  )
            
            thanks.  [  the ravenette gives another nod of affirmation, hoping that the pink tinting her cheeks won't be called out on. she should be in the clear when he clearly has his anxious priorities. ]    dewey--  dewey. with all due respect, i got it. you don't gotta explain her to me like she's a cat or something. i've got my eye on her.

(  dewey  lets  out  a  dry  laugh  at  her  salute,  nodding  his  head.  )  i  trust  you,  tara.  you  and  buffy  are  the  only  ones  i  trust  with  my  girl.  uh,  make  sure  she  eats.  and  drinks  water.  and  sleeps.  she's  forgetful,  you  know  that.  

(  @deputyguts  )
            
            order received, deputy.  [  mockingly, tara raises her hand to her head to give a salute. ]    yeah. i'm going to, i promise. but you've gotta keep calling her too. she cares a lot and she like, gets really giddy after she talks to you.  ( .. )    serious talk, i'm uh, glad you trust her with me.
            
            /  i have tears!

(  @ghostends-  )
            
            that means a lot to me, y'know. it like, makes me feel pretty fuckin' special. 'cause you're the most special sunshiney girl i've met. ever.   [  next, tara opts to pepper light kisses over her girlfriend's face. the forehead, temple, cheeks, jawline, nose and finally, her lips are all offered gentle attention. she ends the affection with another moment of their foreheads pressed together, giddy and grateful to be here with her sunshine for every hour, not just one. a fond giggle bubbles from the ravenette's lips, arms slinging over ellie's shoulders while fingers carefully tousle the colored ends of her hair. ]    it's not weird or dumb, sunshine. i think i've got a few better ideas than a fishing store.  ( .. )   but uh, i love you, too. it's really fuckin' cool that we got to choose each other. oh my god, are you rubbing off on me??   that was a lotta cheese. too much cheese. maybe we should go to like, a fishing store. that's definitely not a cheesy option for a date.   [  she's half-joking, half-aware of the blush creeping onto her cheeks right now. it feels like the best parts of a schoolgirl crush, sitting here with ellie-marie. she dips her head, chuckling again. ]    we have gotta stop having conversations that sound like wedding vows. this doesn't align with my super-mega-longtime-plan.
            
            /  they're so!!  what the fuck!!!!   no one's ever had me,, not like you!!!!!!   i'm right here throwing up with you

WAKE  WITH  YOUR  MEMORY,   @scarredhand :
            
            {  ellie's  cheeks  now  burn  for  an  entirely  different  reason  than  her  painful  yapping  as  she  lets  herself  sink  into  tara,   her  sigh  that  of  sweet  content  when  they're  pulled  apart.   she's  always  maintained  the  softest  of  heart  eyes  where  tara  is  concerned,   weakened  exceptionally  by  the  feeling  of  her  girlfriend   (!!)    cradling  her  cheeks.   where  the  distance  between  them  may  once  have  been  painfully  close  ellie  now  only  finds  peace,   a  lightness  taking  away  the  weight  of  embarrassment  when  her  nose  is  kissed.   }    i  only  wanted  you.    {  she  affirms  after  several  beats.   it's  not  like  she's  never  confessed  such  a  thing  before,   but  it  can  withstand  being  said  again.  }     for  everything.    i  wouldn't  care  if  you  took  me  to  a  fishing  store  for  a  big  date,   i  just  wanted  it  to  be  with  you.   ( .. )     and  uh,   i  know  that  sounds  dumb  or  weird  or  something,   but  you're  it  for  me.   nothing  anyone  did  would've  gotten  me  like  you  do.   i  just..  i  fell  in  love  with  you  one  day  and  didn't  see  anything  in  anyone  else.    ( .. )    that  sounded  insanely  cheesy,   oh  my  god.    i'm  sorry.
            
            *    lovergirl ,,  allie  im  gonna  be  sick  over  them.   also  count  on  ellie  to  preach  about  how  much  she  loves  her  gf !! 

(  @ghostends-  )
            
            you're really fuckin' adorable when you're all flustered and embarrassed, els. you are.   [  it's one final comment tara manages to slip in before she feels timid lips on hers. her hands move up to cup the blonde's cheeks, thumb brushing over burning skin as she pulls her girlfriend closer to deepen the kiss. she sinks into her lovergirl for a few sweet moments before parting them, only because she has another point to get across. that doesn't stop her from planting a few chaste kisses between words. ]    okay, yeah. i think i got it. thanks for clarifying.   ;)   [  her lips plant a kiss on ellie's nose before she pulls back enough to lock their eyes, hands still cradling her girlfriend's cheeks where they'd be until that raging blush of embarrassment faded into a soft tinge of love. ]    you know you don't gotta be embarrassed around me though, right sunshine?   i don't want you to feel like that. i don't give a fuck about how experienced or inexperienced you are. just means i have an excuse to take you out on like, a lot more dates to catch you up on all those experiences. then you can write about 'em in your ellie way, too.  ( .. )   i love you, sunshine. you're good, i swear.
            
            /  it's Their Thing at this point!!!