SereneJay

So I guess you don't use wattpad anymore, huh.

What happened to that one Grethan book you wrote? I can't remember the name, but it's like it disappeared from existence. I really hope it didn't... 

Oh. Wait. Im forgetting my own characters. Sam and Ayla havent been gender reversed. The ones gender reversed are Robin and Aaron. And Gray and Ethan. Not that it matters. Just getting it off my chest

Except Aaron.. He, or should i say she, falls in a gray area.. I still cant hate her.. Neither can i accept what she has done 

Writing this now i realise in retrospect how good Ayla and Robin and the rest of them were to us, Ayla and Robin being gender-reversed versions of the ppl in my life; they were guys, and they have been the sweetest <3  writing Safe and Sound has been really helpful and therapeutic to me.. makes me see things clearer, and makes me appreciate the things ive had in my life than the things i didnt 

Just saw in IG Grays tat.. Oh no sigh.. Im not a fan of covering up body in tattoos.. Trust me I love tats n i want to get one on my own forearm (after i get the job im after rn siiiiggghh cause if i get it before, they prolly wont select me, but if i get it after, its not going to be a prob). I want the equation of theory of everything on my forearm, ive been thinkin of doing that forever.
          
          But not a fan of elaborate huge colorful Adam-Levine-esque (whaat?) tats. I think they ruin the beauty of one's skin, cause ur skin is *beautiful*, cmon now. 

While flipping thru chps of my own story i came across a profile. I click on it. It has grethan one shots. I read one which is about 500 - 700 words long (it cant be more than that). Ethan is a one dimensional super smooth talking guy (he's so smooth). Grayson is simply a mass of nerves snapping wildly with hormones for Ethan. This single one shot has 51 votes. Why cant i ever seem to get those number of votes? Haha. Dont ppl like a dash of realism to their stories? I'm not being bitter at all here! I couldn't care less about my wattpad votes at this point in my life. And everyone is entitled to their own styles, and their own preferences. Im just...wondering.. And just...amazed.

Let me not to the marriage of true minds 
          
          Admit impediments. Love is not love 
          
          Which alters when it alteration finds, 
          
          Or bends with the remover to remove. 
          
          O no! it is an ever-fixed mark 
          
          That looks on tempests and is never shaken; 
          
          It is the star to every wand'ring bark, 
          
          Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken. 
          
          Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks 
          
          Within his bending sickle's compass come; 
          
          Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks, 
          
          But bears it out even to the edge of doom. 
          
          If this be error and upon me prov'd, 
          
          I never writ, nor no man ever lov'd.
          
          

Article 13 passed by EU. It pains me that we seem to be inching towards a narrower-minded world than the free, liberal one which we all had envisioned and hoped for. 

Im on the verge of a panic attack after coming across a guy on yt who looks exactly like my high school ex boyfriend and i just.. I just feel helpless. Its this ugh it's all just so random i was looking up vids on cornrowing hair cause i was thinking of doing it to my own hair someday and this vid came up of this guy called Grahams curls and ugh...ugh... He looks exactly like my ex and it just..it just triggered SO MUCH of emotional hurt in me im almost catatonic >.< Fuck im a mess these days