shinymewgirl

Welp... I have an announcement for the first time in... well... I don’t actually remember... No I’ve not forgotten or abandoned my works or my Marshmallow Army but... Well, I’ve not been well. 
          	
          	This is hard to talk about but I’ve suffered from bulimia since around when this account was made. I’ve had horrible anxiety and depression that’s just come and gone... It’s hard to work and hard to write or just do anything and it really affected how my stories played out- Most prominently with most of ‘Why us?’ which is pretty much just chapter after chapter of Emma feeling trapped and shitty because well... that’s how I felt. 
          	
          	My upbringing didn’t really leave a lot of room to talk about this openly... When my first work was published, I was going through stuff that never really got resolved because I just couldn’t open up about how I felt and I directly portrayed that in my characters. Ever notice how most the main characters are teenage girls who have trouble talking about their feelings... Even Paige is mute because I’ve felt muted most my life. It’s only really now in my adult years I’ve realised how unhealthy I am mentally. I’m working on fixing things. I still struggle a lot, especially with my feelings. I’m going to eventually re-write ‘Why us?’ because it’s just... all wrong. I want to finish my in progress books first as I’m finally feeling like I can write again without just projecting how I feel onto my characters as I’m not now in actual therapy where I’m getting everything off my chest and working through all my issues slowly but surely. 
          	
          	Thanks everyone for your support and I look forward to finishing the stories I started so long ago.

JustRune

@shinymewgirl im so happy that youre getting help and have started feeling better. Throughout middle school maybe even early high school i would read your stories in my classes and am going to be super ecstatic to be reading your stuff again
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CatastrophicAura

@shinymewgirl Hey, I remember reading your books a few years ago and even though they were amazing, like you pointed out, Emma was always struggling with trust issues, abandonment and loneliness. I've only now realised how hard it must be for you if that was how you were feeling at the moment. I'm so sorry for your pain, and I wish strength for you, and I hope you feel better soon. Take care of yourself and don't exert too much pressure on yourself. The books can wait as long as you want them to. Let yourself be your first priority. All love girlie <3
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PhoenixGirl26

When will u update Finding my Courage?

shinymewgirl

I’m not too sure tbh, if you look at my previous post, it outlines how I’m suffered through some mental illness over the past few years I’m still healing from which has very much affected my motivation. ‘Find My Courage’ is within my two priorities of trying to finish, along with ‘Blurred Out’ but I’m hoping I can get back on track soon.
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shinymewgirl

Welp... I have an announcement for the first time in... well... I don’t actually remember... No I’ve not forgotten or abandoned my works or my Marshmallow Army but... Well, I’ve not been well. 
          
          This is hard to talk about but I’ve suffered from bulimia since around when this account was made. I’ve had horrible anxiety and depression that’s just come and gone... It’s hard to work and hard to write or just do anything and it really affected how my stories played out- Most prominently with most of ‘Why us?’ which is pretty much just chapter after chapter of Emma feeling trapped and shitty because well... that’s how I felt. 
          
          My upbringing didn’t really leave a lot of room to talk about this openly... When my first work was published, I was going through stuff that never really got resolved because I just couldn’t open up about how I felt and I directly portrayed that in my characters. Ever notice how most the main characters are teenage girls who have trouble talking about their feelings... Even Paige is mute because I’ve felt muted most my life. It’s only really now in my adult years I’ve realised how unhealthy I am mentally. I’m working on fixing things. I still struggle a lot, especially with my feelings. I’m going to eventually re-write ‘Why us?’ because it’s just... all wrong. I want to finish my in progress books first as I’m finally feeling like I can write again without just projecting how I feel onto my characters as I’m not now in actual therapy where I’m getting everything off my chest and working through all my issues slowly but surely. 
          
          Thanks everyone for your support and I look forward to finishing the stories I started so long ago.

JustRune

@shinymewgirl im so happy that youre getting help and have started feeling better. Throughout middle school maybe even early high school i would read your stories in my classes and am going to be super ecstatic to be reading your stuff again
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CatastrophicAura

@shinymewgirl Hey, I remember reading your books a few years ago and even though they were amazing, like you pointed out, Emma was always struggling with trust issues, abandonment and loneliness. I've only now realised how hard it must be for you if that was how you were feeling at the moment. I'm so sorry for your pain, and I wish strength for you, and I hope you feel better soon. Take care of yourself and don't exert too much pressure on yourself. The books can wait as long as you want them to. Let yourself be your first priority. All love girlie <3
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