shorthairedhyunjin
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I wish I could actually hate my father. I love him and the way he behaves makes me want to throw up. I feel ashamed of having positive emotions for him and I hate myself for that. The way he screams and throws or hits stuff... it's disgusting. He's a fucking adult for maaanyyyy years, he should have learnt by now he's on the wrong side for doing that. I feel guilty for loving him and much more guilty for hating him.
caffeinatedgenius09_
@shorthairedhyunjin i'm so sorry for that...and i'm glad you've created a safe space with the community here on wattpad. i hope you have amazing friends who support you through all that. my dad is not exactly the same, but i feel the exact same emotions regarding him..guilt for whatever i feel.
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shorthairedhyunjin
@shorthairedhyunjin maybe he's actually the reason I feel so awkward with men
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shorthairedhyunjin
@shorthairedhyunjin everytime I go back home I seem to regret it more and more but I have to for my mum. Unless she finally listens and divorces him
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