i’ve lost the motivation to write. in early 2016, i started writing again bcs i got into day6. my love for them helped me through a lot of dark times and for awhile, writing those stories became a coping mechanism for me. it stayed that way throughout the years. as you probably already knew, my jaehyungparkian story, “december”, got quite a bit of attention. i was happy to see that so many people enjoyed my stuff. it gave me a huge confidence boost and kept me motivated to write more.
then i became a stay and wrote “colors”, the seungjin story. it too got positive reactions. i was, once again, super happy. i started working on and gathering ideas for more stories.
then the aforementioned departures happened, yadda yadda yadda. part the very reason that kept me writing wasn’t there anymore. i genuinely don’t feel okay enough to keep carrying on. hence, here we are. i do feel guilty for not finishing my day6 stories because of this but as i mentioned, i just don’t have the motivation or passion to continue anymore.
i’m not sure if i’ve given up on writing, but even if i start doing it again, it won’t be about kpop idols anymore. i think this chapter of my life is finally at its end and i’m walking away for good.
i’m well aware that how dramatic that sounds and that i’m just rambling at this point. i guess what i’m trying to say is; please do not look forward to updates to any of my unfinished stories as there will not be any. my sincere apologies if you were expecting any. i’m sorry it had to end like this.
for what it’s worth, i had a really great time writing and reading through all of your comments on my stories, knowing that you enjoyed them. that will always warm my heart. thank you so much for all the love and support. i’ll never forget it. if you made it this far to here, thanks for reading. have a nice day. :]
