startrekke

please read !
          	i say this with great sadness but this account will be disabled and deleted within the next twenty-four hours. it was about time, seeing as im rarely on this account and havent really interacted with anyone for a long time. so, yes, it's been a long time coming. i'm pretty sure around this time two-three years ago i created an account here. i'd had one prior to this one, but that was solely dedicated to riverdale and when riverdale sorta went downhill, i deleted it and created a new one. enter.. well i dont remember my first username but the last one it had was "strayfilms". a couple months back i deleted that one and ta-da! out comes this account that i made because i wanted to write different things. i made a vow to myself to keep on writing but I've had writer's block for the past year or so, meaning nothing has come out of this account. being completely honest, i no longer feel comfortable on this app. being candid and writing fills me up with terrible anxiety (which only increased during lockdown) and the fact that i joined as a minor, and still am considered a minor now makes me feel quite.. embarrassed because i didn't know any better and i was in a world full of teens and adults older than me. the people i've spoken to are far from horrible - everyone who i've had an encounter with have been lovely but i've always felt like something didn't feel right about being on here. so after two and a half years, i'm calling it quits.
          	
          	it means so much that people enjoyed reading my work, that people were kind and nice and overall sweeter than i ever expected. the truth is, i feel like i've outgrown this app and it no longer feels fun. thank you for all the support and feedback, and all the kindness i have received from everyone. and good luck to everyone in the new year !
          	
          	lots of love,
          	lila.

TWITTERP4TED

it’s been two years but sometimes i just remember this time in our lives and i look back at it and i think i will miss you forever. it’s weird how people can touch each other’s lives through the internet now, how i’ll think of you and the others from here every once in a while. it’s a time that won’t ever come back but if you ever look through this website that we’ve both outgrown, just to reminisce, i hope you see this: that i love you lila nam.

TWITTERP4TED

i’ve matured a lot !! since 2017 and it’s crazy to think i was here at such a young age. i hope you’re doing well and if you ever do see this, feel free to send anything back but i won’t see it for a while probably
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startrekke

please read !
          i say this with great sadness but this account will be disabled and deleted within the next twenty-four hours. it was about time, seeing as im rarely on this account and havent really interacted with anyone for a long time. so, yes, it's been a long time coming. i'm pretty sure around this time two-three years ago i created an account here. i'd had one prior to this one, but that was solely dedicated to riverdale and when riverdale sorta went downhill, i deleted it and created a new one. enter.. well i dont remember my first username but the last one it had was "strayfilms". a couple months back i deleted that one and ta-da! out comes this account that i made because i wanted to write different things. i made a vow to myself to keep on writing but I've had writer's block for the past year or so, meaning nothing has come out of this account. being completely honest, i no longer feel comfortable on this app. being candid and writing fills me up with terrible anxiety (which only increased during lockdown) and the fact that i joined as a minor, and still am considered a minor now makes me feel quite.. embarrassed because i didn't know any better and i was in a world full of teens and adults older than me. the people i've spoken to are far from horrible - everyone who i've had an encounter with have been lovely but i've always felt like something didn't feel right about being on here. so after two and a half years, i'm calling it quits.
          
          it means so much that people enjoyed reading my work, that people were kind and nice and overall sweeter than i ever expected. the truth is, i feel like i've outgrown this app and it no longer feels fun. thank you for all the support and feedback, and all the kindness i have received from everyone. and good luck to everyone in the new year !
          
          lots of love,
          lila.

aprilaughs

៹ ❝ ⸗    —  note from jo.
          
          aaa  ,,  hi lilalalove  !!  i’m
          sleeping kinda earlier now
          adays so you don’t have t
          o worry about me anymore
          sjjsjs how are you doing th
          o ??  are you staying hydrat
          ed and happy  ??  because i
          hope so or else i’ll bazooka
          you happiness and my love
          >:^) SJSJ BUT SERIOUSLY  ,,
          ILY SO SO MUCH AND I HOPE
          YOU’RE HAVING A GREAT D
          AY OR NIGHT YOU AMAZING
          MARY SUE  !1!1  insert all of
          the heart emojees bc wattpa
          d sucks and won’t let me se
          nd them hhh ♡

aprilaughs

៹ ❝ ⸗    —   note from your kangaroo.
          
          hi aIGHT LILA  !!  PREPARE YOUR
          SELF BECAUSE I’M GONNA ROAST
          YOUR ASS UNTIL IT SETS ON DAMN
          FIRE  !1!1  okay i’m just kidding  ,,
          i’m here to express my literal undy-
          ing love for you like wow  ,,  i love
          you more than i love taeyong and
          that’s saying a lOT BC IT’S TRUE YOU
          MARY SUE  !!  ANYWAYS  ,,  PREPARE
          FOR MY LOVE  >:^)  ♡   !

aprilaughs

# O4  —  to sum it all up.
            
            yOU’RE THE MOST ANNOYINGLY
            PERFECT PERSON EVER AND ILY
            SO MUCH OKAY ??  YOU MARY SUE
            ,,  please never stop being yourself
            nor being such an amazing friend
            and writer  !!  so many people love
            you  ,,  and i wish you realise that !
            the world really needs more people
            like you  ,,  who care and are just
            genuinely sweethearts. please never
            ever change for someone who hates
            you or forces you to be someone
            else because that won’t be you any
            more  ,,  at least  ,,  not the you that
            i or most if your friends know and
            love. please know that i’ll always be
            here for you in case you need to do
            something or rant  ,,  because that’s
            what you’ve done for me for all these
            months. iLY MY JOEY SJSJ ♡ 
            
                   —  your cheesy ass kangaroo   ,,  jo :^)
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aprilaughs

# O3  —  your existence  ??
            
            aIGHT YOU’RE LITERALLY THE
            MOST AESTHETIC PERSON ON
            EARTH I’M SOBBING YOU’RE
            SO AMAZING HNGGH EVERY SIN
            GLE THING YOU DO IS JUST SO
            CUTE AND SO AMAZING LIKE I
            ACTUALLY LOVE YOU SO MUCH
            I PRAISE YOUR EVERY STEP SJSJ
            NOT TO SOUND CREEPY THOUGH
            I PROMISE SJSJSH YOU’RE JUST
            SO PRECIOUS AND I’M PROBABLY
            REPEATING MYSELF TOO MUCH BC
            LIKE THOSE ARE THE PERFECT DAMN
            WORDS TO DESCRIBE YOU UGH  ,,
            YOU’RE THE SWEETEST PERSON ON
            EARTH PLEASE DON’T EVER CHANGE
            FOR ANYONE ELSE BECAUSE SO MANY
            PEOPLE FIND YOU BEAUTIFUL AS
            WHO YOU ARE INCLUDING ME  !1!1!1
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aprilaughs

# O2  —  your support.
            
            aAA I HAD TO GO SOMEWHERE BUT
            I’M BACK  !!  anyways  ,,  i just wanna
            say that your support means so damn
            much to me  ??  like when i see your
            comments  ,,  i laugh hella lots beca-
            use they’re just so funny  ??  like uGh  ,,
            not to mention how much you care
            and try to make me sleep super early
            sjsjs  !!  i just appreciate it so much  ,,
            like i actually can’t- you’re literally
            so sweet and spammed every single
            one of my books that i bet your fing
            ers hurt so much by the time you
            stop spamming sjsj i jUST LOVE YOU
            OK STOP MAKING ME LOVE YOU SO
            MUCH I’M SOBBING ♡
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aprilaughs

₊˚.    |   for lila  ,,  the little joey in
          my heart  !  does that make
          sense either sjs ? make sense
          cause you know  ,,  kangaroo
          and joey  ?  yeah  ?  okay i’m
          sorry but let’s get started bc
          honestly  ,,  who would not ma
          ke this for you either  ?

aprilaughs

+   ,,   O5  !
            
                    ⤼   anYWHO  ,,  i just want to say that
            you already captured my heart from the
            moment i saw you comment on that really
            crappy af i made before  !!  you were legit
            super cute and hyper  ,,  and i was just try
            ing my best to not show how excited i was
            too  ??  like i was like “thanks” and all that
            chill jazz that i was before i met you  ,,  but
            inside  ,,  i was like “wHAT OMG YAYAY THIS
            GIRL IS SO SWEET LOOK AT HER COMMEN-
            TS I LOVE HER SM MOM GET THE CAMERA 
            TAKE A PICTURE OF MY FIRST DAMN LOVE 1!1
            THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU !”
            
                        see what kind of effect you have 
            on me  ?  you’re just so damn unique and
            amazing  ,,  you make me want to cry
            everytime i get a notif that you replied or
            you commented. you’ve introduced me
            to a lot of your friends  ,,  but out of all
            the friends i have  ,,  you’re one of the only
            few that has this special spot that no one
            else can reach to. please  ,,  keep being
            you and keep being the bomb - ass aesthe
            tic and amazing writer you are. you’re the
            most amazing person in the world  ,,  and
            don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. have
            i mentioned that i love you ? well  ,,  ily
            ily ily ily ily ily ily iLY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY
            ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY
            ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY
            ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY
            ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY !! ♡ 
            
            
            
            from your loving kangaroo  ,,
            jo ♡
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aprilaughs

^^  ok wattpad you ruined my damn formatting sjsjs
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aprilaughs

+   ,,   O4  !
            
                    ⤼   seCOND TO THE LAST THING I
            WANT TO SAY  ,,  but please please please
            stay as yourself  !!  don’t change into
            what society or false friends want you to
            be because in my  ,,  and others’ eyes  ,,
            you’re already a damn goddess and mary
            sue sent from above. your personality is
            just something so many people wish for  ,,
            including me. i may not make you feel as
            loved as you make me do  ,,  but please
            know that my love for you is just as much ,,
            no  ,,  937382 times more than your love
            for me  ,,  esp with all the things you’ve done
            for li’l dumb me.
            
                        you’re literally like taeyong  ??  but
            in a female version ofc  !!  you’re so precious
            ,,  beautiful  ,,  a bit of a babie  ,,  and really
            someone a lot of people look up to and just
            love with all their hearts. one thing you also
            have in common  ,,  is that you’ve captured
            my heart and you guys will probably never 
            let it go. my hate for you is literally how much
            i hate taeyong  ,,  there’s none. the only
            emotions i’ve felt with you is being happy  ,,
            loved  ,,  feeling special  ,,  and all the other
            positive things. sucks to be all the other
            girls who want to get with me in my high
            school in real life  ,,  because my heart only
            belongs to one girl named lila ♡
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aprilaughs

hI OK OK I FEEL REALLY
          SOFT RIGHT NOW SO
          I JUST REALLY WANT TO
          MAKE MY FAVORITE 
          PEOPLE LETTERS WHICH
          IS YOU SKSBJSJDND

aprilaughs

i just really want to say thank you 
            for all the times you’ve supported 
            me  !!  you’ve literally been there for
            me since we met  ,,  especially with 
            being my no 1 hypewoman for all of my 
            afs,, like how  ??  your heartwarming 
            spam comments just make me feel 
            so happy and  proud of my books ever 
            since a good day to be a dog came out. 
            whenever i see you comment on some
            thing from my book  ,,  i smile really 
            widely because i just think ‘lila’s done 
            it again  !’  you literally spam on every
            thing i write  ,,  even at random parts
            when i myself think about what people
            can even comment on there  !! your 
            support for me is really overwhelming  
            ,,  in a good way  !!  the way you com
            ment on my themes telling me how
            good they actually are despite me feel
            ing disappointed with every single
            one of them makes me feel good about
            them and decide to keep them in the
            end  !! plus  ,, despite me being gone 
            for legit 3 months straight  ,,  you  
            didn’t even hesitate to be a close 
            friend of mine and catch up again  !!  
            i’m just really really thankful for everything 
            you’ve done to show your support for 
            me ,,  and though i may not be the best-
            est friend you have or something ,, i hope 
            that you can still feel the love i really 
            and genuinely have for you  !!  i love
            you lila <33
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