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Guys this is my favourite author on wattpad icl

Hi, my lovelies! I think this is going to be one of the last few days I stay on Wattpad like I normally do! I've been on this app for quite a while now through other accounts that I've had before this one, and have made so many friends on here! We've grown up a lot together! I still cringe at a lot of my old stuff that has either been unpublished, reuploaded, or scrapped. Whether it be fanfiction or original stories, I am sure any writer can relate to how critical we can be of ourselves, haha! Like I was saying, I think it's time for me to move on from Wattpad about now! I appreciate all the comments I get - the good, the bad, and the in between. I am trying to be easy on my 14 year old self, LOL! I am in college now studying English and Psychology (shocker, I know) I doubt I will ever publish the two novels I am working on here, but who knows? I appreciate everyone that I have gotten to know, and if you ever still want to chat don't be afraid to say hello on tiktok! Seriously, I love you guys!

Trying to cobble together the original novel I've been working on after losing all my work is HELL

Hey, how are you doing? 

SAVANNAH HI I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU ❤️❤️❤️

what happened to the first lord of the flies book?

HIII SAVANNAH I MISS YOUUU!

Mental health update pt 2:
          
          I've been relying on social media to stay in contact with my friends, but I am even worse about opening up when its online because it's harder to accurately describe my feelings. All that to say- I have felt incredibly lonely, stressed and exhausted to the point where I was having a hard time completing day to day tasks. I relapsed into some unhealthy habits again, and my anxiety has been back at an all time high after I spent so much of my high school career taming it down and learning ways to cope. 
          
          I felt very defeated, like all the time I spent working on myself as all for nothing. I was hit with a huge burnout after my final exams. I think I've come back down to reality, and I'm glad to say that I'm okay currently. 
          
          If anyone else has a hard time articulating their thoughts the way I do, I want you to know that I hear you. Talking about your mental health is so important. I don't want anyone to feel embarrassed for what they think is "small" or "unimportant." I will always be open to hearing someone vent their thoughts. I will always validate and sympathize with you. I'm always here to talk.
          
          If you read all this, I apologize for the huge, yet vague rant. I haven't given a mental health update in months, but I felt it was necessary considering that this was the darkest period of this year for me. I'm going into 2023 with a fresh mindset, and I can go into my second semester of university feeling much better prepared. 
          
          I'm going to try to continue writing my novel and ST fic for the first time in forever. I am often pretty open about my mental health on here as it's always been a huge struggle for me, and I try my best to advocate positive outlooks for everyone even if it's hard sometimes. I guess wattpad has a word limit for announcements now so I apologize for the seperate parts. Thank you all, and I love you <3

Mental health update pt 1:
          
          I recently just came out of one of the worst depressive episodes I've had in recent years. As I've talked about before, my Freshman and Sophomore years of HS were definitely my darkest, scariest times, but that was a long time ago, and I'm in university now. This episode was one of the worst ones I've had in a while, and I was worried that I wouldn't push through like usual. This episode was equivalent to the ones I had when I was 14-16 years old, fresh into high school with no knowledge of now to handle myself in dark times. However, I have been on winter break for the past two weeks, and things have sort of calmed. I've heard from my friends on different parts of the world how their college and university functions, and it is very different in comparison to American college/uni. It's a huge shift from high school, and I was dropped in a completely different setting. I tried to stay happy through all of that, but keep in mind, it's okay not to be okay. 
          
          I have a very hard time expressing my feelings to people I'm close to, and I never can fully explain my situation to people without getting embarrassed or flustered. So in turn of that, I had a lot of rifts in my friendships as my closed-off-ness was misjudged for bitterness. I've been very deprived of interaction. I of course work and coach cheerleading, but those interactions are very different from the ones you would have with the people you're close to, that you can talk about anything with. 

pack it up lasagna hater