✨The Hot Commodity ✨

Thank You Roman ❤️

I know I’m oversharing , but I’m being transparent about the situation because as I realize I always keep quiet whenever I’m done dirty. I stay quiet for the sake of being the bigger person, but sometimes it’s okay to speak out on your experiences.  I done everything and gave my all to that individual but I realize he’s a lost cause. It’s not my fault and wish I can go back in time to do things over again. Present day there’s no contact. I am in the process of file restraining order and file a report for my safety and my protection. I am working on myself healing anyway that I can. I have a small circle now because this period of my life also revealed to me who my friends are. So there’s the update. 
          
          And to my woman reading this don’t worry about boys there’s plenty of time for that. Take things slow and you’ll know. If you ever feel off whether it’s the person you’re dealing with or with friends or family the people you’re close with that’s your gut feeling so do not ignore it ❤️

I was having a hard time in my personal life and having that being added on top of it, I honestly didn’t want to live anymore. I was depressed and gained a lot of weight. My health was put at risk and also was afraid of a risk that I would be pregnant. I was spiraling at the end of January and all of February. March is the month where I gained some peace but as I said there’s days where I’m okay and other days I’m really feel hopeless and just sad. We’re in April now, I think I took enough time off and want to come back to wattpad. I won’t update right away but I will be updating when I’m ready to. I just want to appreciate those who took the time to check in on me during this time. I appreciate it ❤️

Anyways the reason for my disappearance was because I was dealing with a boy, I know I know… stick with me as it turns out the way he presented himself wasn’t at all what I thought he was. On top of that he lead me had me thinking that he wanted to be with me. As soon as he got what he wanted. He went ghost on me out of nowhere. I had a gut feeling that he was keeping something from me did some digging let’s just say I found out some things that honestly I don’t know why he’s not sitting in jail.  It’s scary, you think you know someone and to hide that from everyone and show me something completely different . Anyways once I found that out I decided it was best to cut all contact from him. Word got back to him and he went out of his way to call me out of my name and threatened to come where I live and have me harm in where he lives as well. It put me on edge honestly 

Whew i been off here since February, so update on my life. I’m okay for right now. Honestly some days I feel fine other days I’m just feel hopeless and just feel bummed out. It’s moments where I’ll lay in bed till I got to get up to go to work other days I try to be productive. 

I don’t think a couple of my followers know this about me but I used to be a big WWE fan. I started my account in the WWE community and one of my favorite wrestlers from this era is Roman Reigns. Anyway I kinda been getting back in WWE as of last year and there was a documentary that aired yesterday about Roman Reigns. I got to say big ups to him, he’s a inspiration and definitely deserves all the love and support he gets his way. Honestly after watching that documentary I hope he knows that there’s people out here that admire his work ethic, his strength etc. I couldn’t imagine being in his shoes and dealing with the pressure. That was my takeaway from watching that documentary. And I been wanting to go back to my roots by writing a Roman Reigns fanfic and actually completing it (i written two in the past) but I want to actually write one after watching the documentary. 

I decided that I’m going to take a hiatus off here. I been going through a lot in my personal life and to put it frankly it’s been chaos and it’s been one thing after another. And mentally I feel lower than I ever felt. My energy is sucked dry and completely drained. Right now the best thing that I can do for myself is to take a step back. I need to really focus on not only protecting my peace but my energy as well. I truly apologize to those that have been looking forward to me updating and I wanted to as well but it’s not fair to you when you all have been waiting for a while for me to update. I appreciate those who are understanding. I don’t want to say too much because it is a lot but it’s to the point I’m considering taking legal action against someone. I have to put my health and safety first. I appreciate the love I feel it and I love you all. I’ll be back soon ❤️

don’t threaten me with a good time 

I know I need to update between my personal life, trying to get my mental health back on track and writers block. I want to do the best I can to post new chapters but other stuff is getting in the way. I know I promised I’ll update soon but it’s taking me a while too. Until then I appreciate the votes and comments you all leave me ❤️ I’ll be back 

My good sis @cherrybabeluv updated her book Flames Of Passion y’all go run and check it out ❤️