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Guys I'm dying, like I just had my first lesson in programming (in which In a programming class for people who want to be a programmer, so like it's a big deal) and like im dying onside because the teacher said that 75% IS ONLY A 2 (polish grades go from 1 which is like an F to 6 which is like an A++ or like an S? Technically it would be A if the Americans didn't erase the grade E for some reason) , like in other classes a 2 is like 40-50% NOT 75 LIKE WHAT, I understand that it probably is going to be my job in the future so i need to be good BUT WTF

I had a parent child meeting at school today, like I went there with my mom because new school and stuff. Well I can safely say that IM FUCKING CRINGE, and also socially awkward and I totally didn't wanna die, you would think that in that type of meeting you would idk talk to somebody say hi, well I saw this one girl that was like cool and I didn't say a word because I felt like i was about to explode
          
          Anyway I guess we seat next to eachother and I only know her name cus the teacher read it, and I didn't even say hi I just sat next to her and I bet she thought It was weird but fuck that I felt like I was about to die and the fact it's fucking so hot rn is not helping
          
          Then the teacher had a talk with the parents and also the principal so we had like an hour to just walk around, see where everything is or even go home, WELL GUESS WHAT I JUST STOOD IN A HALL FOR THE ENTIRE HOUR PANIC TEXTING TO MY FRIENDS, i couldnt really leave because I was waiting for my mom
          
          Also there was a moment where I was seating in a random small room-hall in the other hall I just talked about where there were vending machines and shit, and some boy walked in, looked at me and around, and muttered something under his breath that sounded like "Damn". I MEAN IT PROBABLY WASNT IT CUS NON ENGLISH SPEAKING COUNTRY and also he probably was searching for someone or just amazed cus vending machines
          
          Anyway I'm dead, very sad I know 
          
          I still ain't got motivation and also idk I love to procrastinate and I just don't feel like writing so
          Miss y'all kinda
          I'll start writing more if the year starts finally because most of the chapters I wrote were written at class when I was bored so yeah

Thetransmf dead at ___ from heatstroke 
          
          WHY THE WEATHER HOT
          FUCK THE SUMMER HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DI ANYTHING WHEN ITS HOT
          
          also I'm watching motocykle races rn, like not in tv in person
          Why would anyone think that racing on motocycles is a good idea? Like something goes wrong and you're dead, you're gone. Cars at least have a quote on quote "room" so that you're somehow safe from like something hitting you, but motocycles? You're fucking out
          
          I honestly don't know if these are motocycles, they look more like bikes but eh they are mechanic and fast like motocycles not bikes
          
          These months were just very busy and something was happening constantly that's why u wasn't writing, I'm also going this week or the next one on vacation once more to the sea 
          
          I sometimes feel like I'm never gona write again but that will happen sometimes
          I got the mf ending writen I just need to write like 3/4 chapters and we will be ballin
          Yes iwdfys is gonna be more on the short side but honestly I don't know how to make it longer

Guys why is highschool shenanigans easier to write about then iwdfys 
          
          Like I had time to write yesterday and today because I was in a forest, and in a forest there is no internet
          
          So I decided to write, and I would die for your safety didn't have any updates for like almost 2 months now ;_;
          
          I wrote one sentence, ONE, and I just gave up and started to write silly highschool shenanigans and I wrote one page of my notebook and I gave up again, 
          
          Ughhguhgh you probably hate me for the lack of updates but my brain just isn't working anymore, and there is always something happening, I need to go somewhere or something is happening where I can't write
          
          And when I can write I don't wannaw anymore
          
          So anyway death bye bye (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠)

positive rant
          
          I kinda love that when I tell ppl I write as a hobby they think that I actually know what I'm doing
          "Oh you must have a big vocabulary" NO THE FUCK I DONT, 
          THE LAST TIME I HAVE READ SOMETHING NOT INCLUDING FANFICS AND MANGA WAS LIKE COUPLE OF MONTHS AGO AND IT WAS THE START OF A SCHOOL BOOK THAT I LATER GAVE UP ON READING AND DECIDED TO READ THE SUMMARY
          
          I DONT KNOW FANCY WORDS
          
          LIKE EVERYBODY ALWAYS TELLS ME "oh I can't write anything on wattpad because I have a trash vocabulary" SO DO I???
           "oh but I don't know how to write conversation" OKAY?? YOU THINK YOUR SPECIAL OR SOMETHING? I ALSO DONT
          
          NOW GO WRITE YOUR MASTERPIECE AND PUBLISH IT TO THE WORLD, AND DONT GIVE A FUCK
          
          DONT LET YOUR SELF HATERED DENY YOU FROM DOING SOMETHING YOU ACTUALLY WANT TO DO
          
          PRACTICE MAKES PPL IMPROVE, AND EVEN IF YOU WONT IMPROVE THEN ITS FINE
          
          DURING MY WATTPAD CAREER I HAVE READ MULTIPLE BOOKS WHERE THE NAME OF THE MAIN CHARACTERS WERE SOMETIMES MISSPELLED, MADE NO SENSE, AND HAD PLOTHOLES LIKE CHEESE, 
          
          AND GUESS WHAT I STILL FUCKING ATE IT UP
          
          THE FACT THAT I SOMEHOW GOT PPL THAT LIKE MY STORIES IS ENOUGH OF A PROOF THAT EVERYONE, AND I MEAN EVERYONE CAN TRY WRITING, SO DO IT
          
          JUST DO IT!!!
          
          YIPPIE

PEOPLE FROM NON ENGLISH SPEAKING COUNTRIES, DO YALL ALSO HAVE THAT MOMENT WHERE YOU FOR SOME REASON DECIDE TO LISTEN TO CHARACTER VOICES IN ENGLISH BECAUSE IN ALL OF YOUR LIFE YOU HAVE HEARD THEM IN YOUR LANGUAGE, SO WHEN YOU CHECK THE ENGLISH SOUND ALL OF THE CHARACTERS SOUND.. WRONG?
          
          Idk if this is just because mostly Polish voice acting is awesome (Which is a fakt argue with the wall) or Is it just because diffrent voices make my brain go "no thats not the voices that were these characters meant to have"
          
          Like recently I was watching Shrek, and I decided to change it to English to see the voices.. and Donkeys voice is just wrong on so many levels
          
          No hate towards the voice actor but IT JUST DOESN'T FIT
          Polish donkey has that nagging and annoying tone in his voice which perfectly fits the character
          English donkey also is annoying but his voice misses the flavour, 
          
          I think English donkey is voiced by will smith but correct me if I'm wrong
          
          IT JUST DOESNT FIT AM I GOING CRAZY?
          
          Same with snufkin, I saw a video about him and that voice is just so different my brain is imeadetly going crazy
          But I think that moomin sounds even more different then the polish moomin 
          
          Also włóczykij (Polish name) sounds for me so much better than snufkin, both are adorable but włóczykij is better
          
          I could go on and on, list stuff like scooby doo and many other but it's probably clear that I just watched most of those stuff when I was a child so I'm used to it, 
          
          Weirdly for most movies I don't find anything wrong when I listen to the English voices, like megamind, maybe because I am just watching memes and shit like that so I got used to those voices through shitposts but I don't know
          
          Just a rant, it's 3 am and I can't sleep and my friends are asleep so I don't have who to talk too

WHY DID LORD MAKE ME OBSESSED WITH A CHARACTER THAT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD I LITTERALY CANT DRAW,
          
          LIKE WHEN I WAS OBSESSED WITH AVM IT WAS EASY, AFTER ALL ITS FUCKING STICKMANS, AND IF YOU WANTED HUMAN DESIGNS THEN THERE WERE NO FANDOM AGREED DESIGNS THAT EVERYONE HAS TO FOLLOW
          
          LIFE WAS GOOD AND EASY BUT NOOO
          I HAD TO REWATCH THAT ONE 90S CARTOON I WATCHED AS A KID AND NOW IM OBSESSED WITH SNUFKIN OUT OF ALL OF PPL
          
          AND HIS DESIGN ISNT HARD, BUT I WILL LITTERALY DIE WHEN THERE IS A SMALL MISTAKE BECAUSE HE ACTUALLY HAS A DESIGN
          
          "oh then don't draw him" IT DOESNT WORK LIKE THAT, THE EMPTY PAGES OF MY SKETCHBOOK ARE CALLING ME AND I CANT JUST IGNORE IT AND OR CONTINUE DRAWING CYCLOPS BECAUSE DRAWING TWO SAME EYES IS A NIGHTMARE
          
          Anyway I will go back to writing now
          Maybe
          For the last two weeks I had a younger cousin over so I couldn't write
          
          I also still don't have motivation so I'm sorry

GUYS HELP ME, HOW DO I GET OVER A CHARACTER OBSESSION, IF YOU WOULD TELL ME THAT IF I WOULD DIE RN I WOULD HAVE 0.0001% CHANCE OF BECOMING THAT CHARACTER I WOULD PROPABLY JUMP OFF MY WINDOW BECAUSE HES SO FUCKING COOL I WANNA BE HIM HELP ME THIS IS BECOMING A PROBLEM ITS ONLY BEEN 1 HOUR OF OBSESSION AND I ALREADY GOT LIKE 30 PICTURES AND MEMES OF HIM

IM SO F OBSESSED WITH A CHARACTER I WANNA LITTERALY DIE AND LITTERALY GET REBORN AS HIM, LIKE SJSHSHSHS HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP

I GOT INTO THE SCHOOL I WANTED YIPPIE