The vicious circle of life,
Tends to render me speechless.
The yearning to get the desired love and respect,
Fades in the droplets of mirage.
What if's and but's!
Always ruin the dedicated thought process,
Is it that easy to move out from the web of uncertainties that nestles on love, when it has been the one to give you comfort and shelter at times?
Is it that easy to love your own self, when you are reluctant to even embrace it back with a smile?
Love has always been given to me by other's,
And that's the only thing i know how to spread around ❤.
Hesitant to even ask for help,
Yet be the one when someone is in need.
Why is being a bit 'Selfish' not meant for me?
And being 'Hesitant' being an inherit trait?
Why can't the world accept the fact that being low at times,
Shedding tears and being weak is a part of being a human.
When they preach optimism thinking about it only breaks your heart into pieces that later on shreds your own skin and shed the blood which is one's life block.
The shreds of broken self pokes your sensitive skin
It make's you smile in pain
And rest in peace ✨
IT JUST SIMPLY HURTS!
Long thing in short...
Along with physical stitches and internal bleeding became a problem in my overgoing surgery has left me with tons of mental agony.
Feel like crying, screaming and possibly the worst.
Not me being hypocrite here,
But endings are really more peaceful than sufferings!
Now this might be my last note here because the social media literally was my like own dear family but i can't handle myself with so much pressure.
Never knew running in my 20's would be so dangerous and injurious to my own health, career and family.
Just letting you all know that fighting a battle is not easy, it comes with a literal cost. I am so so done with my shitty life!
Goodbye from a broken heart❤