Ash<3

Y’all I’m back on a new acc

Found my old phone

KIDDO-

Y'all imma be grounded for a long ass time and then have parental controls so if u have suggestions pls tell 

If y'all fall in love with someone while in a relationship go for the one ur not dating, you'll regret it if u don't.. 

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    I hate myself so much
              Why? Because I am not fat but I’m not skinny and I'm not quite in the middle either. No one believes that I have an ED, depression,anxiety, or just mental health problems. They say, “Its your stupid phones.” or “You’re just being dramatic,” and the worst is “When I was your age I had it so much worse.” My therapist tells me I look healthy so I can’t have an ED, my problems don’t matter, and the worst he tells me is If I’m not traumatized then, was it really sexual assault?  Every day I want to die, I want to hurt myself but if I tell my mom she will say how bad of a mother she is. She will not even hug or tell me it’ll be ok, it's going to be all about her, and if she did send me to the mental hospital it’d be weeks before they would have a bed available. I want to be pretty but I want to be handsome. I know I’m a boy but if my mom doesn’t “get that vibe” from me, I’m not trans just confused. I try to tell people but they just make me feel like shit even asking for help or they’ll say, “You need to tell your mom.” I want to but however I cannot. I want to die every fucking day of my life since I was in 4th grade and since I was cutting my mom would tell me “Not to show or say anything because then people will think I’m a bad mom.” That's what she told me every time she saw me cut or scratch myself until it bled. My mom doesn’t know me at all and thinks that because I have A.D.D that made me have all my mental disorders and because “it's just hormones.” She acts like she cares then proves me right every time. All she does is pay attention to my brother because he is autistic and needs more attention then when I tell her she doesn't spend time with me she calls me a liar when I’m not lying. She makes me want to die more than anyone. Everyone thinks I am so confident because I act like I am, everyone believes that too. That's what I want, right? I don’t know how to process all these things, I’m only 13. 

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Imma kms

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