melody :)

i’m going thru my conversation board and i was literally fucking eleven wtf

lol we broke up again gg 

i did get her back. she’s mine. she’s mine again and i don’t have the worries i did before. yes it hurts sometimes. the past is always gonna hurt but the waiting paid off. i waited for her and got her back. i can’t let her go. she means the world to me. if anything ever happens to her, i’ll lose myself. i’m in love with her. 

looking back at that breaks my heart all over again.

no one’s really active here so i’m just gonna rant. i miss her. i miss everything about her. the way she’d kiss me, the way she’d put her arms around me, the way she made me feel loved, the way she made me weak by any little thing she said. everything. i miss her scent. i miss her hoodies. i miss hearing all the pet names she’d call me. but it’s gone. everything’s gone. all of that? it’s gone to someone else. it felt like a never-ending dream but it is over now. i’m not the one she wants. i’m not the one who made her happy in the end. she by dodie always reminded me of her, but i can’t listen to it or think of it without thinking of how she thinks about her new girl during that song. everything she told me she now tells to her new girlfriend. it makes me feel like shit and there’s nothing i can do about it. she’s not mine. everything she said to me has no more specialty to me. she never meant it. she wouldn’t have told her girlfriend all the same things she told me if she genuinely meant it. she’s gone. she’s gone now and i can’t do anything about it. all i have to do is move on but i’m always gonna have this stupid hope that i hold onto. i fucking hate this.

i miss my ex so much lmfao i hate this 

my girlfriend knows my account and that scares me

is wattpad even still alive

yall ever feel like you're not good enough for the person you're dating and you cry because you feel like they could do so much better but they keep reassuring you that they love you? but you still feel that way?

Go read my gAy ass shit