wageuzak

Is it bad that I love and appreciate my friends more than my family? I don't think my family loves me :') (maybe some do but thry don't show it to a point where i don't feel confident in front of my family. How can one feels not confident in front of his own family???) i even overheard one of them saying this when i was sleeping: "She's always sleeping. That's why she's fat." i don't dare do anything in front of my family. They'll always judge me and insult me. I mean it is kind of my fault too for talking their jokes too seriously and not confront them about it but there's only too much i can take till it gets to my head and i start believing the words the say. I get it, I'm useless, I'm lazy, I'm not fit, I'm fat, I'm not as hardworking as my sister, I'm not as pretty as my cousin, I'm short. There's that thing too. THEY LIKE TO COMPARE. I hate being compared to, especially if it's with my cousin. It makes me feel so fucking small. She's my age but she's so pretty and hardworking and helpful and bubbly and cheerful and everything I'm not. Well, at least I have better grades than her.
          Luckily I have my friends :')) i love them to death and I'd be more willing to spend more time with them than my family. They always make me feel appreciated and compliment me and hug me, saying they love me. Ah, how much I love my friends. 

thanks for adding 'one, two, three' to your reading list! i hope you'll enjoy it. 
          - siria

hi. your username is awesome! haha