whyme131

I don’t think anyone ever reads these but I’m starting to write a new book called “Searching For Soulmates” and I’m hella excited :)))

whyme131

Maybe I didn’t wanna kill myself? But maybe I did, just a little.. I knew I had family and friends who cared but you’re brain puts you in this place where there’s people everywhere yet there’s no one.. Not even the best person in you’re life can stop you.. you just act. You take more pills then you should, you slit your wrists, you tie the knot, or pull the trigger.. we all go out of this world at some point in time but you can decide if you go out earlier than intended.. sometimes life isn’t for everyone

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whyme131

Do me and my boyfriend (aka ex) just broke up and I think I’m actually hear broken for once. (Ik ik teens ant be wary broken but it still hurts a lot) I’m not sure how to handle this so tips welcome!!! 
          
          Love the most amazing feeling in the world,
          Makes you feel satisfied emotionally,
          Gives you some of the best memories,
          But trusting someone to that extent,
          Giving them the power to hurt you to the deepest,
          Is It worth It?

whyme131

At the age of 11 I watched my whole family’s soul die right in front of my eyes because I was was to scared to let mine go. At the age of 13 I watched my dad almost blow himself up and the fact of losing him hurt so much that I thought that if I didn’t live with him life would be better. At the age of 13 I watched my step dad die in the front seat of our car and I could do nothing about it. That’s soul crushing. Within the next year I will get a phone call telling me that my ride or die, my everything, my dad is dead. I had this feeling that if I disconnect from him it wouldn’t hurt as much I guess? Because maybe, just maybe it won’t hurt as bad when he goes to heaven. With him having under a year to live I can’t tell him things. I can’t tell him when I want to die or when something bad happens. But I want to. And knowing anytime now that I will never get to tell him kills me. When you love someone so much that you call them you boyfriend or girlfriend. You saying you want to be with them forever. Just keep in mind that forever does have a time stamp. Your forever could end tomorrow or fifty years from now. Moral of this late night rant it just love and live like it’s your last day, or like it’s the other persons. Cause tomorrow you could lose the person you love the most. And you’ll never get to tell them your sorry, or that you love them ever again until there in there casket. I’m gonna stop here and hope that you guys actually understand this and will think about it

whyme131

Thank you
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