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Probably a Rant(WARNING: BAD WORDS)
They thought I was always happy.
But I am not.
They don't know that happiness is not what I've always felt.
But also sadness
It's not obvious really.
But when I write my sadness fades away.
Others says that happiness can be found when you have found the person that fits you.
But I didn't find mine.
My first crush, was Tim, I had a crush on him when I was in Grade 4, he also told me that he felt the same way. Next year, he was not in the same school as I am. I was sad. I thought this could go on.
Not until I met a guy, same personality as his— tall and smart. His name was Al(nickname), we had interactions when but I did not confess my feelings to him yet.
Until last year 2023... My seatmate managed to get his heart. They have a forever but me and him don't.
That's fine... As if. At first, when I knew it, I was sad that... What if he'll accept her feelings? But... It was all right. Haha. I'm so fucking stupid! I kept thinking that we have a together but.... It was just a fantasy... Fuck. I just hope, just hope that one day we'll be together.
SO STUPID,
STUPID,
SO SO STUPID OF YOU!
P. S. I still not managed to move on up until now.