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Okay my lovely rat bastards, go ahead and tag me for me to reply! I desperately need a distraction, so...
          
          - Bleu

So I'm somewhat back! I miss all of you so so much. I promise I will get to replying soon. My mental state is sort of evening out. I'll probably reply tomorrow. 
          
          
          Bleu

What a way of starting 2021 off. Crying into a pillow at 3am. Heh... Welp. The only way is up  I guess...

Due to a loss of a family friend, I don't know if I'm going to be able to reply any time soon. This year has taken it's toll. I need to take a break and focus on getting back into therapy. I might be on to roleplay to get my mind off things but I for the most part will not be on. 
          
          
          Love, Bleu.

***REGARDING YESTERDAY'S ANNOUNCEMENT*** Please understand that this means I will most likely be roleplaying a little less, but I will try and get answers out. I will probably be back into the swing of roleplaying when Winter Break comes around, but I'll be working on characters for the next few days. Take care my darling gremlins!!

***REALLY IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT***
          
          Hello my lovelies! So. I will be CLOSING my RP BOOK, HOWEVER this is simply so that I may do some edits on the characters, make it a little more detailed, and work on more characters! So my book will be down and closed for a time. If you have an rp with me on the books, I would recommend you move it to the pms or discord~ Thank you!

Hello my beloved gremlins. I haven't been feeling well, probably the flu not to worry. I'm going to be resting a lot and I haven't been in the best mood as of late. I will be reply soon, however. I just need to get a hold on my school work. 
          
          Stay safe, wash your hands and I'll see you all soon!!!
          Mwah!
          Bleu

Hey. So, I'm kinda back. I'm very tired, and some stuff has been going down, but please feel free to boop or poke me and let me know if you'd like to continue. Please and thanks.
          
          Bleu~

I'm just... tired I guess. I fight, I get better, I fall, and I get worse. Idk why people talk to me or try to understand me when all I seem to do is fail over and over again. I push people away, and over share. But it's funny because I share so much but so little at the same time. I'm open about being queer, nonbinary, and a witch with trauma. But I know for a fact that I could have it worse, and I know that people have it worse. I just suck it up and shove it to the back of my mind. Nothing really matters to me anymore and if it does, then I just end up shoving it away. Anime has always been a comfort for me, even if it got dark. But my family insists on how stupid it is, or how it doesn't make sense, or laugh at me because I like it. They make fun of my music tastes, how I dress. They barely acknowledge my existence. Most of the time when they do talk to me it's a scolding. Freshmen year, I take classes that were easier and my parents called them "Stoner classes" and then senior year, I take AP classes and dual credit classes so that I can impress them, but when I tell them 'hey I'm struggling, can I have a break' they just yell at me and tell me it's my fault that I chose those classes. I just... I don't know what to do. Quarantine isn't helping any of this, and my parents won't even let me see my friends any more. It hurts and I'm just so done with everything. Damn I know that people have it worse, but sometimes I wish I could just disappear and never have to worry about it again. 
          
          I'm sorry if you read this. I'm just upset. I'll get over it.
          love, Bleu

I have a massive ass headache that has me ✨writhing✨ in pain and my depression as come and railed me in the ass. I'll probably reply tomorrow when I'm motivated and NOT in extreme pain.