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ok i think my manifestation abilities have gotten too strong. while publishing the new chapter of other side of wonderland i offhandedly wondered to myself how someone who is team iron man would react to this book bc i am heavily, heavily team cap and it very much shows. so, again offhandedly, i kinda internally wished that i at some point got a team iron man reader who was a frequent commenter. then i return home from work to a BARRAGE of comments that are actually like going OFF on my main character, her worldview (which is low key my worldview), and literally fucking CRAZY attacking steve, bucky, team cap in general. WHAT?? WHERE DID THIS COME FROM?? i have to stop even casual, passing forms of manifestation if this is the power i hold

just got home from a wedding and after a wedding i'm always so pumped to write. i really do love love

manic mode! manic mode! updated my profile pic and header! (this coming under 30 mins after my spontaneous dump abt new fic ideas is not going to scare away the mania allegations)

my birthday is a week after new years so seeing the stranger things 5 announcement today weirdly hit me so hard like this is the last year i will ever have new stranger things. been a fan since 2016 when i was genuinely 12 years old so probably gonna spark some kind of existential crisis when it's finally concluded

it's that time in my school year again where i have actual school work to do but the demons are speaking to me trying to get me to ditch it to just write my silly little fanfics. i wanna write more of sweet nothing so bad i've been thinking abt it for like a week. same with miss americana and other side of wonderland. i also in a cursory way have been debating editing such great heights. like all of them have been consuming my brain in a time where i actually should be conserving her lol.

guys i saw the man himself on monday night: joe keery. his music is so important to me and djo has been on the top of my concert bucket list for the past few years so to see him in detroit at one of my favorite theatres holy shit y'all. holy shit. i had to go straight back to my college classes the next morning so i don't think it's hit me yet that i saw MY MAN steve harrington with my two eyeballs. like woah that's not real actually. anyway thought i'd inform you guys that my life has forever changed. fool by djo, you are so special to me. gap tooth smile by djo you are so special to me (and you are so mickey and steve coded). chateau you are SO special to me (and are actually so obx coded when you think abt it)

so i just finished reading sunrise on the reaping... that was probably the most emotionally taxing reading experience i have ever gone through. yeah that one's gonna haunt me! r-rated hunger games film incoming ig???

olivia rodrigo was spitting bars in stranger from guts spilled but y'all aren't ready for that conversation. "if i'm not enough for you you're not enough for me" FUCKING PERIOD

bellamy blake fic has been posted!! yeah the 100, i love you forever so glad to be here on the planet as the same time as you my love <3. really obsessed w this story so go check it out!!

yall i've been rereading the journalist and... i get it. i think i kinda cooked idk. like i had it in my head all this time that it reads as slightly younger than some of my other fics and just not as well-developed and i still kinda think that's true but i was still cooking in terms of plot and character dynamics. spence and tate are fucking cute and i'm not afraid to say it!