Falling For You | Crankiplier

~Lost~

Today was exactly a month to the day since Unus Annus had ended, and Ethan couldn't help but feel lost. Though he wasn't sure what to think, he could see that he hadn't been himself recently and feeling a little down he knew it wasn't just because of the channel.

A movement quickly pulled him from his thoughts as he saw Spencer appear on the bed, smiling he sat up and greeted Spencer petting him and scratching him behind his ears.

"Hi, Spencer good morning, how are you doing buddy."

This morning, he planned to upload a video for his channel, though, immediately he began to feel hesitant and unsure he didn't know what to do.

Sighing he got out of bed and started getting dressed, walking to his office/recording room and began getting everything ready to start the video. Spencer lay at his feet as he smiled and began his intro, "What's up my cranky crew, today we are playing among us."

The video lasted for around fifteen minutes before Ethan was fed up and finished the video, doing his outro he soon had switched everything off. Pushing the chair back he sighed as put his head in his hands, one question replayed in his mind over and over until he asked himself aloud, "Why do I feel alone?"

In all honesty he had felt like this for a while now and wasn't sure what to do. He sat in silence for a short while until the sound of his phone ringing pulled him from his daze, picking up his phone he realised it was Mark calling him, or more like facetiming.

Accepting the call he soon saw Mark's face appear on the screen, "Hey eef how are you? Are you alright bud?"

Before Ethan could answer his first question, the second one had hit him but he tried not to show it, "I'm alright Mark, why do you ask?"

"You look upset, are you sure you're alright Ethan I've seen your videos recently including today's and you don't seem like yourself."

Seeing Mark's face and concern deep within his eyes, Ethan couldn't help but start to crack under the pressure, "I - I don't know Mark, I just haven't been feeling like myself lately I just feel lost and I don't know why. I ask myself the same question every day but I can never find the answer..."

"Hey, it's alright Ethan. You don't have to if you don't want to but.. you could come and stay with me for a while."

Ethan considered his words carefully for a few seconds before speaking, "Are you sure Mark? I don't want to bother you, I don't want to be a burden on you.", he replied softly.

Mark shook his head in disbelieve, "No Ethan, you would never bother me and you're certainly not a burden."

"Thank you Mark."

"You're welcome, I'll come and get you and I'll see you soon ok?"

"Alright, see you soon."

With that the call had ended, and somehow he felt like a weight had been lifted off of his shoulders. Maybe this was what he needed, to go away for a while and get out of the house since things between him and Mika had ended a few months ago, though he could only imagine it was the same for Mark as he and Amy had gone through the same thing.

Leaving his office/recording room he set about packing things to take with him to Mark's house. Within the hour Mark had arrived and Ethan had gathered his things putting them beside the front door.

~

Arriving at Mark's house, with the help of Mark. Ethan began unloading his things from the car into the house.

He took a moment while he stood in the hallway taking in his surroundings, although he had been here many times in the past it felt more like home somehow.

Though he had been so lost in his thoughts, he hadn't realised that Mark was stood right in front of him.

"Ethan - Ethan are you alright?"

"Hmm, oh yeah sorry I was lost in my thoughts."

Mark chuckled, "don't worry it's alright, though there is something on your mind isn't there?"

Ethan sighed, "I'd be lying if I said there wasn't I just don't know what but, I won't stay long I'll be out of your hair soon", he replied with a half smile.

"Don't worry Ethan it's fine you can stay for as long as you need you know that", he said softly patting him on the shoulder.

"Thank you Mark."