Conditions Of Worth

loneliness

my dear child

the one within me who longs to find her people

in a crowd of unfamiliarity and pretence

in a world of selfishness and facade

in a lifetime of seeking

seeking to be found

to be a part of the universe

and its people

whos heart gallops at the sound of opportunity

to be there

in action

for all to see and admire

say my name

you think

say my name

you desire

remember me

i am here

waiting

awaiting all of it

the praises

the stage

there big and wide

still

i want you to know

that you

are where you need to be

and that this life is a journey

my dear child

being alone does not make you lonely

if anything it makes you brave

because you and i both know how difficult it can be sometimes

to step away from the ideation and into reality

i want you to know that it is okay to be by yourself

to trace your body with your fingertips

to get to know all of you

there is so much to love about yourself

you are not weak

or fallible

or incompetent

or despicable

utter not those words

to the soul who is a reflection of God

who encompasses the compass of life

come sit now

still or restless

as you are

and relish in the beauty of you

you are not isolated

you are safe

you are not alone

you are in a state of meditation

and you must never close your eyes to the idea of companionship

but neither should you think too long about loneliness

tell me

and i know you will agree

of the many times that you sat with people

in a crowd

and felt alone

unsatisfied by the level of satisfaction

craving

wanting

needing more

in desperation echoing words

manoeuvring your being

to be relevant

to feel liked

important

impressive

the applause

the smiles

the nods

the validation you seek

from pleasing those who could never you

and yet the curtain closes

and we retreat to a place of blame

doubt

sabotage

ideation

was i enough?

were you enough?

darling

how could you utter?

there is no pity here

this is not a boat of despair

row this way

we will not sacrifice our peace

for the glee of others

darling see their smiles fade

their laughs dry

they leave

we are all we have

my dear child

you are enough for you

and that is important to know

you are where you need to be

with who

without who

remember that people do not define your worth

company does not define your beauty

or purpose

you are your own person

free yourself

i beg

i beg

reclaim yourself

revive your spirit

set yourself free from expectations

from them

from the fear

you need not to

let me set this clear

you are enough

enough are you