Blood Lust

Chapter 12

I snuck out of my room, I sped to the library, grabbing a bottle of whiskey, then sped back to my room. I opened the bottle and gulped it down, I coughed, grimacing, I shook my head and gulped down more.

I was laying upside down on my bed, I was kinda drunk... I think. Someone knocked on my door,
I slurred" Go 'way!" The door opened,
Dean said" What the hell, Jace?" I heard him pick up the empty bottle, I groaned.
Sam said" He's skunked, Dean."
" Yeah, he is. Let's get him up onto the bed." I was lifted up, I pushed them away from me,
I groaned" 'M fine! Fuck off!"
" Fangs, you're drunk as hell. Shut up." I was dropped onto my bed, I grunted and rolled over, digging my face into the pillow.
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I trudged out of my room, holding my head, I got to the library, Dean laughed.
He said" Okay, I shouldn't be laughing."
Sam said" You okay, Jace?" I shook my head slowly, sitting down and putting my head in my arms. I shivered as I heard their blood pumping,
I mumbled" I'm going out."
Dean said" Whoa, whoa, whoa, Fangs. I don't think that's a good idea. You need to rest, heal."
" I don't care about healing." I got up, and tried to walk out but Dean grabbed my arms and dragged me back, pushing me in a chair.
" Well, you should. You're staying here, uh, you're grounded."
" Grounded? Seriously? You're not my dad, he's dead." I tried to get up, Dean pushed me down again, I hissed at him and tried to get up again. He pushed me down harder, I grunted as I landed on the chair. I hissed, letting my fangs come out, I got up again, pushing him this time. I walked out, I groaned in frustration, speeding out the door.

I yelped as the sun beamed down, I stuffed my hands in my pockets after pulling my hood up. I forgot my bag and glasses. I don't have anything, not even my phone, shit what I am thinking?! I'm not thinking! Shit! Shit!
I screamed and punched a tree, it cracked then split in half. Oh, that's bad! I started running, it came down and I jumped out of the way. I breathed heavily as I stared at the tree then my fist, bloodied. I sighed and walked away, breathing slowly, trying to calm down this anger but I can't seem to calm down. I screamed then sped off, I hate this fucking feeling, I hate all the feelings!

I'm lost, and I'm freaking the fuck out! I'm hopped up on anger and couldn't trace their scents. I whimpered, and grabbed my head as it pounded against my skull. I let out a shaky breathe, then sped again, trying to find my way back. Then I saw the guy that shot me, I hissed, rage filled me to the brim. I sped to him, grabbing him by the collar of his jacket then speeding into an alley. I pinned him to the wall, hissing at him, letting my fangs out.
I screamed" You shot me! You shot me! Now you're gonna pay!" I went to attack his neck, No! No! No! This isn't me! This isn't me!," Jack! Jack! I need your help!" I started shaking, I breathed heavily, then I saw Jack, he looked at me.
He said" Jace, don't." I hissed, and looked at the guy's neck, his heart was pumping crazily, I could smell his blood." Jace!" He pulled me from the guy and slammed me into the opposite wall. He touched the guy's forehead and he passed out, I breathed heavily." Jace, let's go, okay? Let's go home." He took my hand and pulled me up, I stared at his wrists, I hissed." Jace!" I went to attack, he grabbed my neck and pinned me to the wall. I kicked and clawed at his arm,
" Let me go! Let me go!"
" You need to calm down, Jace."
" I can't! I can't calm down!" I roared and he added pressure to my neck, cutting my air flow. I stopped struggling once I couldn't breathe, my body went limp. He let go, I slid down the wall, gasping for air,
" Let's go home, Jace." He lifted me up over his shoulder, I couldn't think or move, I just let him heave me over his shoulder.

Dean's POV
Jack came in, with Jace over his shoulder, probably barely conscious, I looked at him.
Jack said" He called for me. He was about to attack a man, then he nearly attacked me but I suffocated him till he was nearly unconscious. What's wrong with him?" He put him into a chair, Jace's head went back, His eyes closed, he was flinching a bit, breathing shallowly.
I said" He's mad, but he's hopped up on pure human blood."
" Human blood?"
" Yesterday... he came home with a gunshot wound, he wasn't healing and it would have killed him. He needed blood, bagged wasn't gonna help him, he needed fresh pure blood and I gave it to him."
Sam said" His emotions are on another level, they're too intense for him to handle." Jace snapped awake, he breathed heavily, and looked around quickly." Jace?"
He whimpered" I can't calm down."
I said" We know. It's okay. You're gonna be okay." He whined, starting to shake," You need blood, Jace. That's your cure."
He screamed" No!" He barred his fangs and glared at me,
" Calm down."
" I don't want to! I fucking punched a tree and it fell! Maybe I like the feeling! Maybe I wanna be angry forever!"
" Okay, all right, you still need to calm down, Jace. There's no reason to be angry." He roared," Angry at me for giving you my blood, huh? Is that it? Wanna beat me up, go for it." He stared at me, I knew he was contemplating it. He snarled, and pinned me to the wall, I grunted as I hit it." Come on, Jace. Throw a punch, beat me bloody."
" No! I don't want to hurt you! I don't want to hurt anyone other then myself!"
" I know. But you better hate me, because you still need to heal, you need blood." He glared at me," I know you don't want to, but you have to, you need human blood. You can survive off bagged, but if you're cursed or injured, fresh is the only way to go!"
" No!"
" Yes! Dammit, kid, you're gonna die if you don't just suck it up and drink fresh blood!"
" Then you better get that machete and slice my head off because I'm not drinking from you!" I punched him, his head flung back, so did his body, he hit the ground. I stood over him and grabbed the collar of his shirt, I slammed him against the ground. He gasped and coughed, grabbing onto my wrists,
" Watch your damn mouth! Now whether you like it or not, you're drinking my blood or Sam's." He shook his head," You have to, Jace, you can't heal like normal vampires. You need that blood." I let go of him, he pulled his knees to his chest, crawling back till he hit the bookshelf. I grabbed a knife and cut my arm, his fangs came out and he looked at me, whimpering." It's all right, Jace. No one will be disappointed or mad at you." He was attached to my arm in seconds, I flinched but knew he was listening to my heartbeat so I remained calm.
After a few minutes, he hit the ground, breathing quickly, his eyelids fluttering quickly.
Sam said" Is he okay?" I walked to him and crouched down, I checked his pulse.
I said" He'll be fine. Just needs real rest, with no helping alcohol." I lifted him up, Sam went to his other side and we walked to his room.

We put him down on his bed, Sam sighed,
He said" Dean..."
I said" I know, I pushed it. I was kinda hoping he would beat the living shit out of me."
" He broke down today, Dean. His body and mind is on overdrive and he's terrified."
" He'll be okay, he bounces back."
" Dean, you saw him..."
" I know what I saw. And his emotions will regulate eventually."
" Fine, but Dean, he can't handle school, his emotions, his heightened senses are overpowering him."
" Yeah, we're not even gonna try school anymore. He doesn't need it, he's never gonna be normal."
" Hey, don't-"
" What? I'm telling the truth, he's a vampire, one wrong move and he's dead."
" We protect him."
" He takes off like he did today, we can't protect him. The only reason he's even here right now is because he called for Jack. He's a scared kid, and when a scared kid feels off, they tend to run."
" Yeah, I know."
" We know. From being scared kids. We know him."
" We've got to help him."
" We can try all we want, but unless he really wants help, he's gonna refuse us. Push us away."
" What're we supposed to do?"
" Hope he knows better than we did." I looked at Jace, he rolled over and dug his face into his pillow, his body relaxing against the bed finally." All right, he's in the deep end now." We walked out, closing his door, I sighed, we've gotta get this kid to trust us fully.