Why Now? [Touka Kirishima x Male Reader]

Part Three:When?

December 23
Tokyo, Japan
10:05 PM
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(Touka's POV)
Thanks to fucking Nishiki I'm late to my hangout with Y/N. That damn bastard made me finish off his shift, I guess I'll just message him.
Touka:Hey sorry for being super late I had to finish off my coworker's shift. If you're still up for it I can be over there in thirty minutes
Y/N:Sure I'll have some coffee ready when you get here:)
I smiled looking at my phone. Damn this guy. The rest of the shift was going slow so I decided to close up a bit early. After closing up I quickly got out of my uniform and into some shorts and a hoodie. When I entered the book store he was sitting at the usual table we sat at to study."Hey how was your day?" It's nice to have someone ask that every now and then."Pretty good up until my asshole of a coworker made me finish his shift. How was yours?" I asked sitting down with him. He laughed his really cute laugh and took a sip of his coffee."Most of the days here usually go by the same way. I'll get a good amount of customers before they just stop showing up at around eight. So I'd say it was okay just a little stale. Oh my gosh I forgot there was this really weird dude that came in here earlier today. He was Japanese but was saying the occasional French word. He asked me what my name was and sniffed me like a weirdo. I kicked him out haha." Damn it that's probably that damn egg plant head Shuu."Did he have purple hair and dress all fancy?" I questioned as he went to a small fridge in a back room."Ya he was dressed in some fancy suit." Ya it's Shuu. What the hell does he want with Y/N?"Ya you should stay away from him, he's a creepy guy." He came back to the table with a slice of cake. The icing on the slice said happy 24th."Was it your birthday today?" His face seemed to light up a little."Ya I turned twenty five today. Aren't you eighteen?" Damn do I look like it?"Ya I am." I said before he laughed."Damn you're making me feel old." We both laughed some more."Anyways what was the military like? I had a friend join the Ground Self-Defense Force which I assume is different." His whole mood seemed to change. Maybe it's a touchy subject."My time in the military was, how do I say this, intense but also good. During the time I was in some of the most intense fighting that was going on. I fought in Iraq, Africa, Afghanistan, and the Philippines. The worst of it was in Afghanistan. Well I was an infantryman so I was going out almost every other night raiding compounds and small villages killing or capturing high value terrorist leaders. It was tough and exhausting but my guys and I managed to kill over twenty high ranking ISIS individuals. That whole experience wasn't all that fun though, lost a few friends in the process." Sounds like he's been through a lot."Do you regret any of it?" Y/N sighed at the question."No not really. I didn't really feel anything when I killed those people. That's what bothers me the most at night. Because how could I not feel anything knowing I could be tearing someone's father, brother or son away from their family. That family doesn't know what happened to them and they'll never see them again. But then again live by the sword die by the sword." I guess we're kind of the same way. I've never really felt anything about the doves I've killed but knowing I'm tearing them away from their families just hurts."Sorry I said to much." I hesitantly rested my hand on his."It's okay you big dumby. It's good to talk about these things. If you want let's change the subject. What are some hobbies you have Mr. L/N?" He smiled that cute but fake smile."Well I obviously love reading, I play the piano, I workout five days a week, I paint, binge watch TV shows. Does napping count as a hobby?" I giggled at that. I fucking giggled. I sound like a damn girly girl."Sure I guess that counts. Well I don't have a whole lot of hobbies because of school and work. I really wanna learn piano though. I've always found that type of music relaxing or calming." What seemed like a genuine smile was plastered on his face."I actually have a piano in my apartment. Maybe I could teach you some day." Should I? I don't know it's kinda soon. No, you should. You lost Kaneki because you never made any moves. You got this."Why not tonight?" He looked a little surprised but smiled nonetheless."Uhm sure if you'd like. Follow me I guess." We went up to his apartment where he opened the door for me."Sorry if it's a little messy I wasn't expecting you to be coming up here." Is this man blind?"Dude what the hell do you mean? This place is sparkling clean. If you consider this dirty you'd probably have a heart attack looking at my apartment." He laughed a little before leading me to a big piano."This here is a Steinway D Continental Concert Grand Piano. I inherited it from my mom. She's the one who taught me how to play." He pulled out a small bench before sitting down on it. Y/N looked up at me and patted the space next to him."Sit." So I did and looked at all the keys. He taught me some of the basic keys. After a good fifteen minutes of practice he helped me play our first song. He decided we'd play the beginning of Clair De Lune. He helped me a little pressing some of the keys, our hands brushing against each other occasionally. Ahh this is so cheesy but my heart hurts so much."You're actually pretty good for a starter Touka-Chan." As he said so he checked the time on his phone."Ah it's getting kinda late. Are you gonna stay a little longer or do you want me to walk you back?" What do I doooo? If only Yoriko were here to help me. You know what never mind she'd probably be screaming her head off over this situation."I guess I could stay a little longer." And so I did. I stayed for another hour before he walked me back to Anteiku."If you ever wanna hangout again or study just message me. That was pretty fun." Y/N said before he began walking away."How about tomorrow?" He turned around and smiled."Sure why not? I'll be closed tomorrow anyways so I guess we could hangout during the day." With that he walked away. I went inside and plopped myself on my bed. Why do I like this guy so much? As I was gonna get ready for bed I got a message from Yoriko.
Yoriko:How was your little hangout?😏
Touka:It was actually pretty nice we talked for awhile and then went up to his apartment
Yoriko:...
Touka:What?
Yoriko:YOU WENT UP TO HIS APARTMENT?!
Touka:Hey we didn't do anything like that. He taught me how to play piano then we sat and talked before he walked me back
Yoriko:Ahhh so romantic, when is he going to ask you out?
Touka:I just wanna take things a tiny bit slow for all I know he just wants to be friends
Yoriko:Alright but if he doesn't make a move you have to
I sighed looking up at the ceiling. Will he make the first move? Damn it now I can't sleep. I got up and turned on the LED lights in my room before changing the color to red. Maybe I can try and relax myself with some music. Scrolling through my phone I landed on my sleep playlist and pressed play. After what felt like an hour passed I wasn't tired. I can't get that damn guy out of my head. Maybe I should make the first move. But what if it's to soon? I'll just wait a little and see if I can get closer. My eyes slowly shut before I drifted off to sleep.
(Y/N POV)
Staring at my wall those memories flashed through my mind. The same ones I had nightmares about. It was that one night. Me and one of my teammates were keeping over watch for some Marines. We were on a rooftop, I was using my sniper looking through the scope, scanning the area. My crosshairs made their way to a kid who was pointing an RPG at the Marines. Slowly I squeezed the trigger before I watched his lifeless body drop to the ground. The image of his body is ingrained in my brain. Looking over to the bottle of Prozac pills I sighed. My doctor prescribed me them as antidepressants, although they've never helped. They haven't helped with my emotions, the only thing they've done is prevent me from crying. Might as well stop taking them, I'd rather feel something than nothing. These recent days have been getting slower and slower. The only highlight of them is seeing Touka. Even if it's only for an hour or two, seeing her seems to make me feel a little better. Maybe I should make a move. What if she doesn't feel the same? It's to soon anyways. Don't worry, you've had multiple relationships before even though in all of them you were cheated on. Just take your time and get closer to her. It should be easy considering she shows up here everyday. I need to sleep, I'm overthinking. Looking at the time it was only about twelve. Kinda early for my usual sleep schedule. It couldn't hurt. I undressed myself before laying under the covers where my eyes slowly closed shut.