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On Track - Hyunin

Warnings: suicide, depression, blood (a little bit)

Jeongin walked down the school hallways, placed in between Minho and Hyunjin.

"What do you guys want to do today? After school?" Minho broke the silence.

To be honest, Jeongin just wanted to spend time with Hyunjin. Hyunjin didn't pay much attention to Jeongin anymore. Not since Sogeun came into the picture.

Sogeun. Such a nice beautiful girl, who which Hyunjin was head over heals for. Jeongin didn't know why Hyunjin liked her. Jeongin didn't see anything special about the girl. Maybe because he wasn't attracted to girls but nonetheless, he wanted Hyunjin to be with him.

"I need to study but I don't mind going out," hyunjin spoke, interrupting Jeongin's thoughts, "what about you in?"

"I-oh I'm fine with anything Hyunjin wants to do.."

"Oh so if I wanted to go somewhere, then you wouldn't be fine with it?" Minho snickered.

"N-no that's not what I-"

Minho's words were cut off by Hyunjin and Minho laughing at him. Jeongin didn't know if they were making fun of him or they were just laughing. Jeongin was way too sensitive to know.

Jeongin was suddenly pushed from the back by sogeun.

"Move Jeongin I want to be in the middle."

Jeongin faked a little smile and changed positions so that he was walking next to Minho. Sogeun, Hyunjin, and Minho laughed together about some social media post that they all saw while Jeongin tried to collect his thoughts.

Does Hyunjin hate me?

Do they not like me?

Why is Sogeun so mean to me?

Why did she push me?

Is this just her way of messing around?

Why do they hurt my feelings so much?

"Jeongin we're gonna go to class now. Meet us at the little ice cream shop a couple blocks away. And don't worry, I picked it," hyunjin laughed.

Jeongin nodded and faked a smile once again before walking off.

~~~

"Jeongin I want to sit next to Hyunjin, move." Sogeun crossed her arms.

Jeongin didn't even bother to smile. He got up and sat next to Minho. Jeongin felt like his energy was being drained just by looking at Sogeun and Hyunjin flirt with each other. His head started to pound as Minho rubbed his back.

"You okay Jeongin?" Minho looked genuinely worried for the boy.

"Yeah I'm fine. I'm just going to put my head down."

Jeongin rested his head on his arm and closed his eyes. Sogeun's voice echoed through his head as he heard her disgustingly flirt with Hyunjin. Minho laughed with the two and quickly forgot about the youngest.

"Jeongin do you mind giving us all some alone time?" Sogeun's voice was bitchier than ever.

Jeongin lifted his head up, "W-what? Why?"

"You're just ruining the mood. Please go." Sogeun rolled her eyes.

"O-oh..sorry..I'll go.."

Jeongin got up from his seat and started to walk away. Hyunjin excused himself from the table and ran after Jeongin. Hyunjin pulled Jeongin's shoulder back so the younger would face him.

"That was a little rude of her..I'm sorry.." hyunjin looked at his feet and fiddled with his fingers.

"It's okay Hyunjin. It's not your fault."

Jeongin turned around to walk away. Hyunjin called after Jeongin but his ears drown out noise. He just kept walking. Hyunjin yelled something from the distance but it it was unclear what he said. Jeongin's head filled with terrible thoughts.

I can't take this anymore.

Im not doing this anymore.

That's it.

This is enough emotional abuse.

I cant do it.

I hate this.

I hate this.

I hate this.

I hate this.

~~~

Hyunjin knocked on Jeongin's apartment door.

"Jeongin!! Jeongin?? Are you there??"

There was no answer.

Hyunjin couldn't wait for the boy. He just wanted to know if he was okay.

Hyunjin opened the front door with his spare key Jeongin gave to him.

"..J-Jeongin..? Are you in here..?"

No response once again.

Hyunjin checked the kitchen for the boy. No one was there.

The living room. No one.

The bathrooms. No one.

Jeongin's bedroom door was slightly open, but not open enough to see inside.

Hyunjin knocked on the door softly, "J-Jeongin?"

The door opened due to Hyunjin's knocking.

"...i-innie.."

Jeongin hung from his ceiling with blood dripping out of his mouth. Hyunjin panicked and quickly brought the boy to the floor to hold him in his arms.

"..why did you do this Jeongin..?"

Why would you do this to me?

Why would you kill yourself?

I cant live without you.

Was this Sogeun's fault?

It was Sogeun's fault wasn't it.

I miss you innie.

Hyunjin held the lifeless body in his arms, "I..loved you.."

Hyunjin caressed his face and kissed his forehead, "I'm so sorry.."

A note fell out of the pocket of Jeongin's hoodie.

Dear Hyunjin,

If you're seeing this, you're probably with me on my floor, watching my body bleed out. If you are, it's alright Hyunjin. I'm right here. In this note. Don't worry. If you even are worrying. I couldn't stand it anymore Hyunjin. I couldn't stand the emotional abuse from Sogeun anymore. The fact that I had to live with that for so long just broke me. The fact that I don't have anyone to hold me, to tell me everything is going to be okay, just pushed me over the edge. I had nothing. I'm sorry I'm leaving you. I don't know if you even care. Hyunjin I was in love with you. And no, not in the brotherly way. I wanted to be with you; be able to kiss you, hold you, make love to you. But I couldn't have any of that. Because you loved Sogeun, and not me.

-Yang Jeongin

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Word count: 954

AN:
Sorry for not uploading. I've been on writers block. (This isn't edited so sorry for any mistakes. I literally just wrote this)