[Por]
Everyone says that time is something that human beings receive equally. Therefore, every day human beings have the same 24 hours of life. Therefore, saying that time is not enough for us is not the reason to be irresponsible. Although everyone says that, for me time never lasts the same. Because happy times always go by fast. While the times of suffering, the hands of the clock did not advance at all. Those same 24 hours, for me, are sometimes 24 hours of dreams. It is a time of happiness that passes quickly, leaving only blurred memories to think about. While other days - those same 24 hours - turned into 24 hours of pain and suffering. A clock that never moved and a heart broke by someone's words and actions.
Until ... he can't hold back his tears anymore.
"Por!".
" ..."
"I'm calling you, why don't you answer?"... my mother said
" ..."
"How dumb are you?!"
" ..."
"Taking the college entrance exam is so easy, why didn't you pass the exam?!"
" ..."
"Look at Aunt Paew's nephew next door. He's very diligent, he was able to study and get first place, and also pass the exam to go to school in town."
"Well, I'm not as good as the others, mom."
"Aren't you good or didn't you try? You have a lot of time, but you don't know how to read documents or books."
" ..."
"You are lazy all day, you just sit and play. You don't go to special classes. How can you be stupid like that?"
" ..."
"With this easy start, you not been able to do it ... What will you be able to do in the future to achieve success?"
"Mom ... but I ..."
"So stupid, you don't even have to call me mother, I don't have such a stupid son!"
" ..." I froze in the middle of the house. My clean white face was slowly turning red. Both eyebrows drew together into a knot. The small round eyes slowly revealed a couple of clear drops of water trickling down the cheeks, breathing and tone revealed a faint sobbing sound. Although it was a brief conversation - less than five minutes - it was full of frustration, torture and it was deeply ingrained in my heart, like bad memories that will last forever.
..... Another scene
Today they announce the results of the entrance exams for the first year of high school. And of course, I didn't pass the exam at the school my mother expected me to get into. Although it is a school that is not very competitive, but it was considered one of the famous schools in the region. My mother had great expectations for me to continue my studies in that high school, because Aunt Paew who lived next door, always liked to talk to my mother and convinced her that high school was a turning point in the life of every teenager. She told her that if she got into a good school like that, it wouldn't be difficult to pass the famous college entrance exam. Then Aunt Paew pushed her nephew, the same age as me, to study hard until he could pass the entrance exam. Completely different from me. I'm Por Pawaret Saejang, a very lazy student who doesn't turn in homework and I'm more addicted to games than other people. I seem like a good student when I'm in class, but actually I'm like all the other kids: lazy in studies. Studying math?... aishhh... I always fall asleep when it comes to studying math or arithmetic. After saying those things, it would be difficult for someone to believe that TODAY I am number one in school, the same one who was also able to take the entrance exam to the Faculty of Engineering at a prestigious university in the country. Well, yes ... I am the same little boy who was late for school and who was so stupid that the average GPA he received each semester made him almost always come last in the classroom. Well, that being the case so what could I do to compete with others? Where will I get the wisdom to go to the best schools as my mother expects?
