Trying to put into words how much of an effect
your presence had on my world
and how empty my world seems without you.
You were my north star, you always guided me
and with your guidance
I always felt safe,
now I cant find my way
and there is nothing to say,
to fill the void you left
the day you left this world behind.
Sometimes at night when sleep refuses to come
the tapestry of our lives undone, I close my eyes and to try to bring your voice
to the forefront of my mind,
imagining what you would say right now.
what words of support you would give to help me stand tall again....
Falling every day,
like a ghost you faded away,
and everything seems so wrong,
like a movie script
that I don't feel a part of
and like a movie it doesn't feel real,
because how can you be gone
when you had everything to live for.
so many things you will never get to see
and experience,
my daughters growing into young women,
my son walking down the aisle,
the empty space at the top of the church for you to be a proud grandad vacant.
So many places you wanted to visit when you were well again
so many plans you had for when this madness we are living in finally ends,
my heart breaks for you,
and wishes I could give you back the time that should have been yours,
and even though it hurts more then I can express
that you are not with me anymore
or that I cant see you're smiling face..
or talk about our favourite books together,
at least you are in no more pain now,
safe in heavens arms
where nothing can ever hurt you again....
you were one in a million daddy
a poet with a poets heart,
everything feels so different without you,
and I feel so lost in the dark,
but even through the tears
even through the pain...
you will forever live within the pieces of my broken heart.
