wherever I go
I do see your face,
time passes
but does not heal
the wound of your passing still bleeds,
my grief pools at my feet;
alive but dazed
feeling empty within.
I cant believe you are just a memory now,
a photograph within my room,
your vacant chair where once you sat
and read night after night,
a stark reminder of all that is lost
never again to be found.
I miss so many things about you,
from the sound of your voice,
to your infectious sense of humour,
but most of all I miss the love and support
you gave out
that echoed from you in waves.
At night I cannot sleep
and for you I weep,
mourning all your stolen days
feeling like I'm in haze
the days all jumbled together,
nothing seems real
and all I feel is an emptiness
within me,
lost in the shadows,
where I cannot reach you.
none of it feels right,
you once shone so bright
yet your light was snuffed out
without warning,
no one knew how little time you had left with us,
now all I feel is regret,
regret for the days I never spent with you
and regret for the days we can never have back,
lost to me forever,
buried within the veil of the past
wishing with all my heart that I could have you back
if only for one small moment in time,
so I could once again feel your hand in mine
or hear you turn to me and say
that I will be forever your little girl,
and that is the way I will always stay.
Trying to piece together my broken heart
and come to terms with the fact that you
have gone away....
yet even though you have gone so far,
even though I cannot visit where you are...
every time I look up at the night sky,
I will forever see your beautiful blue eyes
shining in the light of the eternal stars....
