Ungodly Hour: Short Stories

Lonely

I know sometimes you feel alone. I know some nights you wait by your phone. I know you wish you had somebody to hold. It don't have to be lonely being alone. We all get to this state. Sometimes I feel trapped in a bubble and attacked by my own voices. Pop that bubble, why don't I? Its hard. My soul has a weak immune system. I feel alone sometimes. Waiting for someone to talk and feel me. Waiting for someone to come to me and make me laugh and smile. Waiting for someone to hug me whether physically or mentally. But even when I get that, I still feel alone. I need to learn that I am the one. I am the one who needs to do that for myself. Without I, I am nothing. Popping things and taking things and drinking things won't stop the swelling. Without my own support within myself, I will stay alone. Without my own laughter developed within. Without my own arms wrapping myself like a tight blanket with fur draped around it. I will forever feel alone. But honestly... It don't have to be lonely being alone.