So we stayed in the house and at 11:00pm we decided we should go grocery shopping if evreyone was spending the night while evreyone went and shopped me and jahseh just ended up roaming off, when we roamed off we got to know eachother more and then jahseh started walking away from where people can see us he than asked me have a had sex before.i stoped right in my tracks and he Noticed that I wasn't be his side any more and he quickly ran back and assured me that it's ok if I'm not ready and hugged me.we then walked to the hygiene isle so I can get stuff to shower at there house.after about 20 minutes of me and jahseh talking we finally decided to catch up with everybody else.they where in the food isles.we got food and bought it and jahseh payed for my items and we left I sat by jahseh in the car and I put in my earphone and leaned over to jahseh and layed on his lap I sat there and just realized that I feel the most comfortable and safe when I'm around him and I just let all my thought sink in before the feeling of sleep consumed me.
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We make it to Isaiahs house and jahseh lightly taps me trying to wake me up I soon wake up and raise up from his lap and I went to get some bags but all the guys stopped me and zariha just laughed as isaiah throw the house keys at her so she can open the door.
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We ate and talked and I got to know all of them and after that I got up and went to jahseh room to shower and when I got out jahseh was laying down in his bed on Instagram and I got dress
What I put on:
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I also put on a black laced bra with matching panties.Damn girl you look sexy jahseh says.thank you baby I say back.
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I woke up to the sound of jahsehs alarm clock going off I get up and turn it off to wake him up for school,once I do so he was quickly annoyed by the natural light coming from the window.you want me to shut the curtains?yes please he says with a laugh.I get up to close them and walk to close the curtains and I can feel his stare on my butt and I look back and he was just smirking.
Everyone finally got dress and we left 1-2 hour was fine until I go into the halls to see jahseh making out with a girl.I quickly ran over to him and successfully pushed him off of her.bro wtf? after all of our bond and what we did you cheat on me? I say really loud getting everyone in the halls attention.Cheat? We where never dating I don't date.I just stood there blankly feeling lost and stupid as he walks away.I walked the opposite way and I went to my locker to get my pocket knife.I walked into the bathroom and into a stall and locked the door as I still hear the halls quiet and the reactions of what just happened,I flipped open my pocket knife and rolled up my sleeve and my leggings and sat on the toilet and began cutting my wrist and my calf's,as I cut more and more blood dripped on the floor and I cried saying in my mind.I should've listen to my enter thoughts,I miss Tyler,I wanna see my mom ,my new mom is toxic and abuses me.I hate my self,just slit your throat already.my thoughts where cut off by the bell ringing I got up and fixed my clothes and stuffed tissue on the places I cut myself so it can catch the blood.I left the blood in the stall thinking the janitor would mistake it as a minstrel accident. The last hours before lunch I just slept through I went to lunch and grabbed my lunch and ate in the janitors closet.I went in the lunch room to throw away my lunch tray and once I stepped in there all the eyes where on me and the lunch room started to get quiet.When I was leaving out me and jahseh caught eyes for like a second and I left and went to my Locker and got a note book and wrote down my feelings.
