Nahmir POV. November 14
3:30pm
It's Thursday and De'asia been gone since Tuesday FUCKING TUESDAY. I've been looking everywhere for her and can't find her, she turned her location off, I went to her job and they said she haven't been in.
I'm losing my fucking mind, we've all tried calling her and she don't answer our calls or texts. I even called her brothers and them and told them I couldn't get in touch with her but they told me the only message she sent was not to worry she fine.
I haven't been to sleep, I've tried to go; I tried smoking myself to sleep, I tried drinking beyond my limits and I still couldn't go, I would just sit up and think about de'asia. I haven't been out my room since she left, I COULDNT leave I just sit here with the hoodie she got me.
I was just laying here on the bed looking at the ceiling fan spin when my front door opened I jumped up and ran down the stairs thinking it was my baby but it wasn't, it was Taylor and them.
I sat down on the couch with my phone in my hand hoping for a call or text from her but never receiving it
"She still haven't responded" Tez asked
I looked up from my phone and shook my head. I looked around at all of them and they look a mess Tez had on shades, mark looked tired, peanut got bags under his eyes, Taylor and breanna look like they been crying all day, and vontae just sat there frowning
I bussed out laughing "y'all look terrible"
"Boy I know you not talking, you look 20x worse then us right along with yo house what you do break all yo glasses" mark said
I looked around my house and he wasn't lying, the shit looked terrible
"Yea dats about right, I think I got a few dishes left" I shrugged and heard my phone ding
I hurried and looked down but it wasn't her I felt the regret eating away at me, she pregnant wit my baby and out there by herself. My eyes started watering but I hurried up and wiped it before the tears could fall
I looked up and seen Taylor crying silently and breanna laying on vonate lap crying, I walked upstairs to get me a blunt and walked back downstairs and started smoking
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FF>> it's been 7 hours and she still haven't reached any of us back, we on our 9 blunt and we've just been sitting here smoking in silence for the past 7 hours
"Bro have you ate" vontae looked at me and I shook my head "you gotta eat something"
I shrugged my shoulders "I can't eat, I haven't even been hungry"
"Ok but you hav-" I cut Taylor off
"I can't bro" I yelled at her and they jumped, I felt myself tearing up "I can't eat, sleep, or function right without her bro it hurts" I whispered
We just sat there in silence my high was blown now I knew for a fact I wasn't gone sleep
"Y'all staying here tonight" I asked standing up clearing my throat
"Yea I am" mark said and the rest of em nodded they heads
"Alright I'm heading to my room y'all know where the covers and stuff at" I started walking upstairs when vontae stopped me
"Aye bro try and get some sleep man forreal" I nodded my head and continued up the stairs
Once I got to my room I laid down on de'asia pillow and stared at my phone
My baby💙✨
Baby
Baby please answer me
I'm sorry baby I promise I am so sorry baby please answer the phone
At least text me back to let me know that you ok
Baby please I'm begging you to please answer the phone
Alright kiss the baby Goodnight for me I love y'all so much please come back
Delivered
I sat my phone down just look at the ceiling fan spin thinking about the reason she left and why I was such a dumbass to even think she was cheating just because her job was gone be closed. I honestly don't know where those thoughts came from, or why I started questioning her in the first place
That's how I sat the rest of the night, no sleep just up thinking like every night has been since she left
