Coming Home Is Not Fun Anymore So I Lock Myself In

Chapter 4: Stuck With You

Fast forward, one month after we first met we became girlfriends. She was the one to ask me if I wanna be with her officially. I mean, she has a different way of wooing me. There was a lot back and forth drama with her ex-boyfriend. There was one time when she felt so down about him not giving a fuck anymore about her that she wanted to go him so bad. So I sent her off to him. They made out and ended up fighting again anyway. The guy was so pissed about her seeing another woman that he left her in the middle of a blazing hot highway in the Northern Province.

It was the beginning of a nationwide lock down. She came back to me, thin and scorched as hell. I had to admit that her hugs were the most comforting gestures I've ever had. There's still some lack of trust for both sides. Getting caught lying on each other made it tricky to build a good foundation in our relationship.

I didn't like how her ex flings are still texting her. There was one time I was hanging out in the kiosk and I heard her speaking to someone using her flirty voice. I knew it was Philip. Her friend warned her that I'm right in the corner and that she needs to be careful about it. As If I couldn't hear them, duh. Ray went in to her station and I headed toward our locker. Checking her phone, I had a glimpse of her pass-code the other day and so I gave it a try. Reading her texts with Philip boiled my blood so freakishly I could feel my demon horns growing. I was so enrage I had to put back her phone and took a deep breath. I figured I should give her the chance to explain herself. So I went to her station and she knew there was something about me.

There was no way I could hide the anger in my eyes. The tone of my voice was pretty normal but the way I looked at her, there's no denying about how much I wanted to end that ugly bastard's life right there. I'm talking about the guy, okay. I figured I should ask her about it now or I'm going to fucking explode.

"So...Philip, huh."

She had this reaction on her face. Nervous as she was, she blurted out lots of stuff on how they met in the smoking area. She said that he was already in the smoking area when she got there and since it's a public area there's no avoiding him. I sat there and looked her in the eyes while she said those things to me. Stares with the intent to kill and a smirk, that's all I can give to her at that moment.

Two hours past and I know I have to reassess the situation in a more logical explanation. Why would she bother lying to me in the first place? For me, the only acceptable occasion to lie about anything is when it's in a life or death situation. I don't know about her. I've read their conversation but she doesn't know about that. She doesn't know that I know that she's lying straight to my face. She was the one who invited him to meet her in the smoking area. What a bitch, right?

I've come up with a resolution to forgive her even when she's not sorry about it. Do I want to lose her? Nope. It's not that she cheated, they just had a smoke and nothing happened since her friends were there. She looked really cold since she's just wearing a shirt. I went to wrap my coat around her and went back to work ignoring her the rest of the day. Despite my anger I managed to take calls in a calmly manner.

Her go to threats has always been going to her friend's house and leave me behind. We basically live together now. We both went back to my place; surely I'm not letting her touch me. She then started to cook great food for me. She's beginning to show me extra effort cleaning the room and making me a glass of milk before bed time. During the weekend I went to the mall alone and I thought it's about time that I should let her know about it. I was shopping for a new curtain and I sent her a picture of which frying pan I should get for her. She insisted on getting the cheap one but it just didn't suit my taste at all. I went to buy the non-stick frying pan instead.

"Also I need to tell you something..." I said.

"Hmm, what is it?"

"I read your conversation with Philip before you even told me what happened. I knew and I watched you lie to me. It was fun and quite entertaining and I forgive you."

"What!?? Come home now! Let's talk here when you get home. Hurry up!"

Saw her text and didn't reply back. I took my sweet time picking my groceries making sure they're not expired. I lined up to pay for my items and walked out of the mall. It took me quite a while before I got home. I stood in front of my door knowing she's inside waiting for me. I opened it and she went babies. I put down my stuff and gave her a tight hug. Hmmm I was right; nothing in this world feels better than her warm hugs. "Sorry babe, I'm so sorry." That's what she said. I giggled in response. "I got the non-stick pan, I hated the cheap one."

"Thank you." She then went to mess with the groceries and had some chocolates.

I was no different. Because a month after that incident we were deep on lock-down due to covid-19 and our company was offering us to stay in a nearby hotel. Only that didn't happen because all of the hotels around the area are already fully booked. We were up for a good compensation for still going to the office despite the situation. A good 8,000 bucks bonus was promised for simply completing 80 working hours in a given amount of days. There were some conspiracy going on at the moment that I had to do something or else no one is going to get that bonus. I sent a letter to the management and fair enough I was heard. I did it for the entire hardworking cluster who's about to suffer a great loss with that bonus.

I was summoned to our Operations Manager's Office together with my current supervisor Nik. We were there for about an hour of talk clarifying how it happened and where the conspiracy came from. Nik was a great supervisor; he simply just got caught up with my reckless stunts to secure my funding, a casualty.

Ray gave me a good amount of lecture and threatened to break up with me if I don't apologize to Nik. I was quite stubborn and she knows that. I just didn't see the need to apologize when he's not even accused about anything, for the inconvenience, perhaps?

Anyway since she's very consistent about it I went to apologize to Nik. She was okay with it and we went home. I just couldn't take it any longer I had to drop all the crap to my best friend Rob. I texted him about everything, how I apologized to Nik for the sake of compliance because I don't wanna be in the situation where she breaks up with me for stupid reasons. I told him about how I felt when I read her messages with Philip. I got really beat up and I fell asleep.

Few hours later my phone was screaming with texts, and I was still half asleep. Ray read my conversation with Rob and she found out about how I faked my sorry to Nik just so we don't fight over it anymore. She got so mad at me and I can't say I regret it. I never wanna lie to my girlfriend about how I truly feel. Somehow I was glad she read our conversation because then I don't have to explain to her that she can't fucking control me. My pride has been the most important thing to me even before we met. Pride has been the only thing keeping me alive in this godforsaken world. We slept in a 96 position that day, nothing sexual about it.

We may be sleeping in one bed but god I miss her so much. It took a few days for me to talk to Nik. I asked him for coaching session so we can talk about what happened because I couldn't take one more day unable to hold her close. She saw us both talking professionally in a friendly way and she somehow looked relieved about it.

And when we got home, I sincerely apologized to her and we made out.