Oh shit, i forgot i had this book.
ok here we go.
soo it started when I told my mom to tell my sister to clean her side of the room.
they ended up just making a mess out of it and not cleaning anything lol
ok so then I get out of class
and put music on
to clean my room
and my sister starts to scream and yell about how my music is so annoying to her.
and then I get punched in the eye by my mom, telling me to shut up or she'll take away my laptop
ok soo maybe 10 min later, my sister puts on her music
which is trash pop music from like 2015 or smth
ok ok and then I turn it off, and said, "your music is annoying ugh" and she starts screaming and crying
it was so unnecessary
anyway, my mom comes into my room
grabs my laptop, and uhm i kinda grabbed her arm? i didn't mean to try and hurt her i swear
anyway I pushed my laptop under my bed behind me
and she punched me again, pushing me to the floor
she then put her hands on my neck, and began to choke me
I felt my eyes roll back into my head
I lost my breathe and I tried to take away her fingers
I kinda hurt her again? idk I didn't mean to
so I'm on the floor, my hair messed up, crying, probably blood dripping down my face. and my mom continuing to yell at me
maybe 15 min later
I came out of my room
and my mom tried to act like the victim
saying I hurt her
and that she didn't want to hurt me
I'm sorry. I'm such a bad daughter
I'm sorry for the problems I make
I'm such a horrible girl
a bad girl
not a good girl, a bad one
fuck I just made myself cry again.
why do I do this
whats wrong with me
ngl
all i want
is comfort
for someone to tell me that im ok
that I'm amazing
that I'm useful
that i matter
