haikyuu boyfriend scenarios

if you died

- angst!

𝗼𝗶𝗸𝗮𝘄𝗮 ♥
- he doesn't believe it at first
- "what the fuck kind of sick joke is this?"
- he texts you about a million times asking why people are spreading these rumors around
- you never texted back
- he was in complete denial
- "nah this is just some big joke"
- after school was over he ran to your house
- when your parents opened the door he could tell it wasn't a joke
- they've clearly been crying fo quite some time
- eyes red and puffy
- he doesn't say anything to your parents
- he does nothing but turn around and walk away
- he has no idea where he's going, but he doesn't care
- he just keeps walking and walking
- "no" he says to himself
- "there's no way.. this just has to be a joke, right?"
- a couple days go by and he's left alone in his room pondering about everything the two of you still had ahead of you
- "we had so many trips planned together"
- "there's so much you didn't get to experience yet"
- he's honestly just a complete wreck
- and angry
- so incredibly angry
- at everything and everyone
- "it's not fucking fair!"
- he doesn't talk to anyone for a long time
- he barely eats
- or practices volleyball
- he doesn't feel alive anymore
- he doesn't want to be alive anymore
- but he knows that he has to continue going
- for you.

𝗶𝘄𝗮𝗶𝘇𝘂𝗺𝗶 ♥
- he couldn't talk when he first found out
- after the news had been told he was just left there in shock
- his frustration is through the roof
- if anyone even tries to talk to him they will most likely get slapped
- if he hears anyone talking about you he'll start a fight
- wether they are saying something good or bad, he doesn't care
- he says "you don't deserve to talk about her, you didn't even know her! you never even tried to get to know her, and the only reason you speak of her now is because she's dead"
- he looks at old pictures and videos of you
- he really just can't wrap his mind around the fact that you're gone
- it all seems so surreal to him how someone could be there one day and the next just completely disappear
- he thinks back to all the times he declined your offer to hang out
- just wishing that he didn't take you for granted
- "she's the only fucking person i want.. the only person i need. it's not right. it's not right that someone so young can be just taken off this earth"
- he threw up at your funeral and had to step out for a couple minutes

𝗺𝗮𝗱 𝗱𝗼𝗴 ♥
- don't talk to him.
- literally just don't.
- if he hears ANYONE talking about you, he punches them straight in their face
- he doesn't give a fuck who it is
- he doesn't even give it a second thought before he does it
- he cries every single night
- he sleeps with your sweatshirt and pretends like you're still there
- he doesn't want to let go
- "y/n was the only person to truly understand me. she was the only one who actually even tried to understand me"
- you were always there for him even when nobody else was
- he feels so empty now that you're gone

𝘁𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗼𝘂 ♥
- he genuinely cannot feel anything anymore
- he's just numb
- he never smiles anymore
- he never dances anymore
- he's just not himself
- "it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair"
- "i felt like i could truly be myself around her without feeling judged"
- "she never judged me for how weird or unusual i was. in fact, she actually was weird and unusual with me"
- the first couple days he couldn't stop crying
- but it's like there is no more tears left in him
- he wants so badly to cry again
- to feel something again
- but he just can't
- he has your favorite perfume in his room and sprays it everyday so he can have your scent with him wherever he goes
- the only time he gets even a little bit emotional is when he looks back at your old messages, videos, and pictures
- "such a beautiful smile" he says as he looks down at his phone, a picture of you fills the screen
- "so beautiful"
- he talks to you everyday
- "it was a pretty fucking bad day today, y/n. i just wish you were here" his voice starts to crack and tears seem like they may start pouring out at any moment
- but they don't
- "one last hug from you is all i ask for"
- he has a certain star he looks up to every night and talks to it
- because he knows only you can shine that bright

𝘂𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗷𝗶𝗺𝗮 ♥
- he tries to keep his emotions submerged
- but he can't
- he breaks down every time something reminds him of you
- every small detail that has a hint of you in it will set him off
- if smells a certain perfume you used to wear, if he sees someone drinking your favorite drink, eating your favorite food, or even someone who has the same sweatshirt as you, he'll tense up and start to sob
- he talks to tendou a lot less
- and the only time he really does talk to him is when it's about you
- "it's not fair, tendou"
- "i know" tendou replies