Broken Souls

Chapter XVIII: I Am Happy

・• I Am Happy •・

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'I want to smile as if I'm happy.
I want to feel the pain, the pain located in the deepest of my heart... ahh, so precious.
I love it...!!!!!!!!!!!!!'

The girl's pov:

"..."

'Mnn...? I'm in... his room. I see, I woke up before him.'

I turned to his side with my hands beneath my head on one side. I observed him. He was sleeping quietly.

My heart felt the pain again.
Oh, such a lovely sensation.
As my tears were about to fall down, I smiled, and I held his hand softly.

'Iwanttodieiwanttodieiwanttodieiwanttodie...'
It went non-stop in my head. But it was fine.
I was fine. It was okay, because I could feel him... because I could feel his temperature in my hands.

His hand was large, it was pale and cold.
I adored it.
I intentionally moved my wrist closely to his... so that my suicidal scar was slightly touching his wrist. I smiled even more as I could feel my scar felt happy about what I did.

It was being touched. My scar was being loved.
I knew that it felt happy and somehow, I felt embarrassed. I panted as I started to feel good.

I couldn't hold back my tears anymore.
I let them fall down my cheeks quietly, while still feeling his warmth in my hand, and near my wrist.

I couldn't help but giggled softly. The moment I let out my soft giggles, I immediately bit my lip, not wanting to wake up the sleeping vampire beside me.

'It's nice to know that no one in this world cares about me. Because I can then die without considering about others' feelings. I can die peacefully. I can kill myself. Not even God cares. God... maybe He doesn't exist in the first place after all.'

"Mnn..." An annoyed grunt could be heard.

'Oh please don't wake up! Don't wake up yet!!!'
I squeezed my eyes shut as I prayed.

'I want to stay with him like this for a little bit more...'
Then I opened my eyes carefully... and

He was staring at me.

I blinked my eyes twice and looked down.
"Sorry... for waking you up. But I didn't mean to! I just accidentally woke you up..."

I didn't hear him say anything back to me. So I looked at him again.

He was still looking at me. As if he was observing me...

"Hmm〜 I see."
I could see a small curve formed on his lips, he then held my other hand and pushed me down.

"You wanted me to hurt you, am I right?" He smiled.

He... smiled. He smiled??? He smiled!!!

I immediately gave him a large happy grin as I saw him smiling at me. "Hahahahaha!" I laughed happily, "Shu san!!! You're smiling! You're happy, right?!!! Yayyyyy!"
I was really happy seeing his happy expression!