so i have been felling this weird filling that some thing is not right cause i have had sex with von an it is weird like i throw up every morning i know i ain't pregnant again cause i am taken birth conrol so i am going to the doctor today to see what is going on i put this onn
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an i go down stairs to see every one here i go to them an do the normal so no one would know what i am doing the only reason i hide things from them is cause i am scared of what they would do or say or what mostly what von would do cause he has been cheating on me with a girl i act like i don't know cause i love him to much so say any thing to him about it yet but i was on my way out the door when i saw that she was here i just look at von an walk out the door an go to the doctor
10 minutes later
so once i got there the called my name i went in the back an i got a ultrasound on me an once i look at the screan it really broke my hart cause i saw that my baby was gone just looking at it you could see the baby was gone
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once i left the doctor i got in my car an cryed hard i put my shades on an started to drive back home once i got there i sat in the garage crying harder an harder to the point where i couldn't cry anymore all the things i went through an how my child doesn't call me mom an how i get cheated on the lost of my 2 kids once i got out the car an went in the house i saw that they was kissing i just walked to the couch an sat down i saw everyone was still here they was either on there phone playing with there kids or on the game or kissing
''mama why you got shades on''jqaylin said as every one look
''nothing i am fine''i said as i laid bacl in the chair an hold all my tears back
''mama is every thing ok you don't look like you ok tell us wassup''layla said as i shock my head no an i just sat there
''take them shades off we in the house the sun is not in here''she said as i took my shades off an sat there
''mama have you been crying''journey said as i nod my head yes
''why you was crying''she said as i shock my head no cause i am not telling
''mama just tell us it ain't nothing to hide we all fam right''kayden said as i nod my head yes
''well umm i have been crying for umm 3 months now an it was because von has been cheating then i found out that i can't go see my baby becaus i kicked her out an i lost 2 of them then i found out today that i had a miscarriage again an i can't just sit here an act like every thing is normal when it is not i love von to much to let go i have been holding in so much i that i stressed the baby out to the point where it is gone it was going to be a boy but it passed so there goes that chance i really miss my family an the happyness we had together it is just like every one is leaving cause i didn't love them or see what was really going on i was to worried about my self to see what happened at all''i said as i was crying by the time i was done talking then every one got up an hug me an i hug them back
