Live a little (sapnap x reader)

Please..

"Take a leap of faith once in a while" They would tell me. "Live a little." Their dreams have come true. As I stand on the ledge, I'm ready to leap. I'm ready to take my life and make it better. The wind is calming, soothing even. I have been waiting for this day. It's always came across my mind. Sitting in the back of my head saying I'm ready to do this. I find it funny how everybody thinks I'm okay. How nobody would realize if I was cutting or not. If I was trying to 𝑑𝑖𝑒. And how nobody asks if I'm ok but they always count on me to say it to them. How they rely on me to make the next move, to make them feel better. But this is not about those people this time. It's my time to shine. For people to realize that I am not a tool for them to use when they need me. Everyone goes to me when they need help or feel down. Because they believe I, y/n, am the person who will be there for them every day. That I feel no pain. That I never get hurt. That I am 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑒𝑐𝑡.
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Before I went out I left a note on the table saying that I love my friends and family but how nobody loves me. Nobody ever thinks about me and how much pain I go through everyday. But that now they don't need to worry about that. Because I won't be here any more. I wrote on the paper that I love them and that I will miss them when I gone.

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I have always been a fan of sapnap and the entirety of the dream smp. But I have come to realize that I'm not just a fan. But a 𝑠𝑖𝑚𝑝.
My friends find me weird but also enjoy the war and everything that's going on in the dream smp. I live in Florida with my parents and of course I know that Dream, Sapnap and George live in this area. But I've never thought that I would ever meet them until this day.

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I am ready. I am going to fly. I have a sudden urge to scream and cry but I can't. My life has always been a mess and now I know that I never enjoyed any part of it. I was about to fall when someone grabbed me and held me tightly, not letting go. "Please.. don't do this.."