chapter 9

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authors note- hope ur all enjoying the story! i've not been too keen on my last couple of chapters so i'm going to try to make this one good for u all <3
trigger warning for dried blood but that's all xx

Lupins living quarters were so warm, as soon as he led me through the door it was like I was right at home. It had that homely smell, you know?
Books are shoved awkwardly all around the living room and there is little wooden tables scattered with coffee cups and papers. Next to a worn leather sofa was a record player, I noticed the vinyl immediately- David Bowie.

'I know it's a mess at the moment Y/N you'll have to forgive me!' Remus apologises.
'Nono it's lovely sir really.. Never been anywhere as nice as this.'
He raises his eyebrows in surprise at my comment and then points me towards the bathroom door in the corner. It's next to the small kitchen area, which seems to be both clean but also messy at the same time.
'There's a clean towel in there, shampoo, body wash it's all in the shower. It's fairly easy to use but if you need any help turning it on just call me!'
I thank him gratefully and turn to go to the bathroom, there's a full length mirror opposite me as soon as I walk in. I turn around as I get ready to unchange, I don't want to see my body right now.

My long sleeved shirt is stuck to my arms, the dried blood seems to be as strong as fucking superglue. I try to pry it off but it hurts far too much. I need to take it off like a plaster, clutching the top of the sleeve I rip it off as fast as I can. It's utterly agonising, so much so that I involuntarily shout out in pain.
'Y/N?' Remus' voice shouts as he runs to the door, 'Do you need help?'
'It's- it's nothing sir, I'll be out in a few minutes, so sorry.'
'Never say sorry to me Y/N, promise me? You have simply nothing to apologise for.' He says softly through the door before walking away.

He's so nice it makes me feel so goddamn guilty.

I made the shower quick, I didn't want to spend any more time in there than I had to. I still made sure to inspect every inch of the bathroom though, the bland walls were covered with notes for classes and pictures of a younger, less worn down Remus with other people. One man seemed to make an appearance for quite a few pictures with Lupin.

I pat myself down gently with the towel and pull on the same clothes I got changed out of, I forgot to bring any more. Remus wasn't satisfied with this as I walked out the bathroom.
'Oh dear, did you not bring any other clothes? I can't have you sitting in those Y/N, let me find you something to wear!' 

He comes back a few minutes later holding up a tattered brown jumper and some oversized dark green trousers, looking very proud of himself.
'I've got a belt also in case the trousers don't fit, but I'm pretty sure they have an adjustable waist'
'They'll be perfect sir, you really didn't have to do this, but thank you.'
I go get changed in the toilets, when I come out Remus has set out two cups of tea along with some sandwiches on one of the tables.

'Oh sir..' I sit down and go to pick up one of the cups of tea, my hands are shaking though so I nearly spill it all over the coaster.
'Here... let me Y/N' He guides the cup to my lap, making sure to not touch my hands.
We sit in silence for a couple of minutes, not an awkward silence, more of an understanding one. We both know how strange this whole situation is.

Remus initiates the conversation (as usual).
'So, erm, If you don't mind me asking.. What are your plans after Hogwarts exactly? I know that your family situation is-'
'Complicated, yes.' I finish for him.
'Yes... complicated. Is there anywhere for you to stay or are you planning to travel?'
'I wish I knew sir I really do' I reply, 'I don't know, I have no idea what is going to happen if I get that far.'
Lupins body tensed up at that last sentence. 'If.. you get that far? What are you implying?' he delicately asked.

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