make me, sir ( spencer reid x reader )

13. Help from C

It's been a week since you went back to work. Hotch didn't want you working on a case and flying. To be honest, the thought of getting on the jet made you nervous. It reminded you of John and the way he beat you. But what hurt the most, it reminded you of Spencer.

You mostly did paperwork at the office and would occasionally help the team. You and Garcia spent a lot of time together. It was fun hanging out with her, she was a breath of fresh air. You were completely healed from your injuries but you were still healing emotionally. You decided it was time to call your psychologist.

'Hello ?' a woman answered the phone. 'Hi Cara, it's Y/N.' you said. 'Ahh I missed the sound of your voice. It's been ages. How have you been ?' she asked. 'It's been going rough, I just really need to see you.' you said, you could feel a tear forming in your eye. She was such an important person in your life and you just needed an outsider to hear the story. She could hear the pain in your voice and said 'Okay, I have an open spot for you this Saturday. Will 10:30 work ?' 'Perfect, see you then.' you said and hung up.

You got home and decided to take a bath. Soaking in the warm water your thoughts were going crazy. You were mad at yourself for opening up to someone. You barely knew Spencer and you decided to trust him completely. You knew him for 2 days, it's insane. What the fuck is wrong with me ? you asked yourself. But the thing that bothered you the most was the fact that you instantly felt something for him.

You got out of the tub and put on some comfy pjs. You felt restless. Tossing and turning the entire night. The next morning you woke up to the sound of your alarm. It was Friday and you decided to call in sick. You had no motivation to get out of bed. You quickly sent Hotch a text.

- Hey Hotch. Not feeling the best today, think I caught a cold. Will it be alright if I skip work today ?

Hotch replied instantly.

- No problem. Get better soon. We're flying back tonight.

The entire day you spent in bed. Ordering a pizza and drinking a lot of wine. You binged watched Netflix and fell asleep at around 8. The next morning you woke up and felt excited to see Cara. Changing into a pair of jeans and a simple white t shirt with your slip on Vans, you left the house.

You drove to her office building and went inside. When you saw her tears rolled down your face. You rushed over to her, giving her a hug. She held you while you sobbed. After a while you went into her office. It was a simple office but it made it felt like home to you. 'So, what's going on ?' she asked you. You told her everything that happened between you and Spencer. She listened carefully, never interrupting. 'And yeah I don't know what to do. I'm so mad and disappointed in myself, I can't believe I trusted a complete stranger with my body.' you said.

'Do you regret it ?' she asked. 'Um no.' you replied. You were so confused with everything. 'Well, I don't think you should be mad at yourself. See, when we meet someone and you have a soul connection, you do things without thinking twice about it. What you felt with him was real, but you did the right thing. You allowed yourself some space to figure things out. You handled the situation perfectly. You have grown so much.' she said and a smile appeared on her face. 'Thank you, I appreciate it. What should I do now ?'

'I think you should do what makes you happy. And by the looks of it, he makes you happy. But you need a little more time. And I think you need to have a proper chat with him. You need to give him the chance to explain himself. And the rest you'll figure out, with or without him. It's up to you.' she said.

The session ended and you felt so much better. You wanted to talk to Spencer to clear some things up. But you weren't ready to go back to him. One step at a time you reminded yourself. You decided to call him.

-ring ring-

'Hello ?' he answered.