Moonshine And Sunwolf || Namjin ||

Namjoon's Emotional Battle

Seokjin's point of view

The moment hoseok said that he could hear the heartbeat of my child. I felt like I lost my whole world, he then said it's better to get rid of the child before the blood moves to other parts of my body and all I know is the pale white room black out in front of my eyes. When I woke up I felt sharp pain in my stomach and the feeling of pregnancy was gone. I had no idea how I felt when I got pregnant but the feeling of emptiness is all left now. 

I caressed my now empty stomach which had a small bulge from all my eating. My abs vanish and never decide to come back, not that I miss it. I couldn’t stop my tears running down my cold cheeks from the loss which was too much to take up. Something happened unexpectedly but before I could cherish it moon goddess took it away from me.

“why why are you doing this to me. Did I ask you anything then why the hell are you interfering in my life”, I shouted at the full moon without realizing the pleasant scent engulfing me.Only when strong arms took me into its embrace I felt namjoons presence. Instead of calming me it made me cry even move making me smash on to his chest crying hard.

“why did you come now. Why don’t you vanish just like other time leaving me suffer alone you scumbag”,I tried to push him away with all force but the grip my waist tightened more pulling me on to him. His warm breath on my neck made me shiver  more under his hug.

“let's get inside honey. You Are freezing”,he lifted me in one swift motion and started walking to our which is now my room.I didn’t protest since I was tired from all the emotional and physical wounds.when he laid me on bed removing my shoes and coat I thought he would leave before my heart would crush into pieces seeing him leave I turned my back to him.

Namjoon’s point of view

“Jin, remember when you taught me to cook japchae”,there was no reply but I resumed since I can't bear with the things riling up in my heart anymore.I sat beside him not knowing whether he was asleep or away. I decided to spill my heart out.

“for the first time in my life I thought it is not bad to have a family. In fact it was nice to have a family. I never thought I would have a mate who just runs around the house with oversized clothes  with chips in one hand and mobile in another. I thought that I would only mate with the future luna and transfer the responsibilities and just lead the pack. I wanted Luna only for my pack and my position as an alpha.I never believed in love let alone another person in my life except for my friends and my brother.But “, I let go of my breath which I don’t know when I held and stopped myself from retreating mentally.

“things changed the moment I saw you coming out of the bush that day. Those blazing green eyes took my breath away the moment I saw you. But I hated the fact that I was attracted to you. I thought it was pure attraction and bond between us. So I stayed away from you but things got out of hand when I marked you and forced you. That was my alpha you always keep my alpha on edge whom I put in control for the past eleven years. And when I saw you hurt because of me I couldn’t forgive myself. Before I could figure out my feelings you got pregnant. “,I tried to sniffle away my tears which subconsciously started flowing down my cheeks.

“you might not know how happy I was when I came to know that I was going to be a father. The person who never dreamed of a family flew in joy at the good news not until hoseok reminded me of omega complications in pregnancy.i couldn’t think of losing you I could never think of a life without you that made me to take that decision. I couldn’t tell what happened to Jinhyong six years back. Thinking of you in his lave nearly killed me jin. I can't let the person I love the most in this world die Jinie '',I sobbed to myself and couldn't take it anymore. The feelings were too much to handle that he was willing to show the weakest side of him to his mate.

Cold hands cupped on to my cheeks lifting me up to look at the face which ahde the same tears running down those cheeks. I was grateful that he was not asleep this whole time and listened to me.I grabbed a job with his hands holding it on my cheeks rubbing my warmth onto it.

“Namjoon ah”,he was about to say something but I stopped him. I have to spill everything in my heart today.

“and when I made japchae to you that day I felt I should protect my family at any cost . protect my mate and my unborn child will all my heart. But when I came to know about the child the next morning my heart shattered into pieces and I couldn’t forgive myself that I thought my decision led to all this. I ran to all the forest and almost burned half of the forest. I wasn’t ignoring you, I was scared to come near you. Scared that I would hurt you if I came near you.i cans scared”, I was shut with a pair of lips smashed on to mine pulling me on to his. I was shocked for a few seconds before reciprocating the kiss.

This is my home, my happiness which I missed all through the week.our tongues danced together as I pushed him onto the bed slowly making our kiss more urgent and passionate. Good I missed those soft textures on my lips when we came to air from our mind blowing kiss,”god, you love me namjoon”, Jin whispered during his ragged breaths which made me smirk at him.

“yea, I love you with all my life jinnie”,with that I kissed him again and my hands started wandering under his shirt feeling the warm skin of my mate.when I kissed out mate mark and started to such on to his skin on his shoulders and neck I felt my mates hands on my pant zipper. That slapped me to reality and I sat up on bed leaving him shocked and confused.

“what”, he whispered, still trying to catch his breath from our passionate make out session.

“we can't jin”, I was about to climb out of the bed but he stopped me by holding on to my hands and looking at me with those puppy eyes. God he is so devouring and why is he so tempting tonight. 

“why not”, he almost begged me making it much more difficult to control myself.

“hoseok saif we cant have sex for the next two months”,I said to him sitting beside him on the bed.

“why”, his voice seemed to be frustrated , even I’m frustrated at the fact. Who could keep hands to themselves when you have such a sexy omega as a mate.

“you should heal from the wound and loss of blood. So we can't honey”, I pecked on to his forhead and looked t his face

He gave me a evil smirk, this is not good someone has to save me right now