•I love you• ~adstin~

/Chapter 12/ ✨smut✨

TW: Smut and self-harm also Ty to @ad3mmm for writing the smut

Adam POV: "Let's take a photoshoot and use a rainbow pride flag and if anyone says anything just say it's cute" I tell him. "I like it" Justin says. "I like you" I reply. He blushes. We go outside and Justin sits down and I sit on his lap. We rap the flag around us and I lay my head against his. This is pretty much telling them but it's ok.  We take a few pictures and post them. "Justieee" I wine. "What is it baby" he says while running his hand through my hair. "Im tiredddd" I wine. "Then go take a nap" he says then kisses me. "With you?" I ask with puppy dog eyes. "I need to edit baby but here" he says while handing me the dogs. He smiles. I sigh. "Your lucky I love you" I say and walk upstairs to Justins room and lay down on his bed. He never said nap in my room. I smile to myself and fall asleep.

Justin POV: I edit a bit and then go to find Adam asleep in my room. Oh Adam I think to myself. I lay down next to him and check our post. There are some interesting comments.

(The caption was "I love you- I mean the I love the sky, Adam your pretty today- I mean the sky is pretty today")

lankylover: OMG ARE YOU A COUPLE!!!

puppy7000: Wait yall are dating-

lankyboxlovers: OMG OMG YES YES YES YES

rayray7823: OMG YOUR GAY??? EW WTF

soccerqueen100: I don't like LGBTQ but you're cute together so

superstraightking: EW WTF YALL ARE A DISGRACE GO AND KYS LIKE NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU WTFF EWWW KYS 

Adam POV: I wake up and move to Justin in his arms. "we got some uhm comments" he says. I grab the phone out of his hands. "Damn" I say. "Can we delete it...please?" he asks. "Baby don't let other people stop you from living but if you want we can" I say. "It's ok just leave it up" he says. "Ok babe" I say. "I know what's gonna cheer you up" I say and grab his waist. " a-adam, what are you doing" he asks. "oh just something ive always wanted to do~" I say. I put my tongue into his mouth I took him into my room (because it was darker than his and it set the mood more) and threw him on my bed unaware of what was gonna happen. Then I started removing his shirt as I told him shh it won't hurt, calm down we will be fine. I took off his pants aswell and he was left in boxers. I started taking off my clothes and then grabbed him and took off his clothes as well. Then started thrusting inside of him he started moaning it was like music to my ears. 

Justin POV: After we did well yk we fell asleep. I don't know if that's just I thing after sex or... yeah probably not. I got up and went and got some water and came back to find Adam taking a shower. I sat down finished editing the video I started and posted it. Adam came back into my room in clean clothes and gave me a kiss. "Im going out to get a few things for our zero budget" he says. "take a shower and get ready to film, ill be back soon." He leaves. I look back at the comments on the video. I cant be myself. IT HURTS LIKE FUCK TO BE MYSELF. I HATE myself. Why don't I just listen to the comments and kms. I can do that to Adam. I love him. Ugh, why is life so complicating. I got into the bathroom and shower after my shower I cut myself. Multiple slits down my wrists. As well as my thighs. Fuck. Well. I feel a little better. I get dressed and go set up the area for the video. It's really hot but I have to wear the hoodie bc of my marks. Adam gets back and we film the zero budget. He grabs my wrist pulling me to him. I groan. He looks at me with deep eyes. "Justie.." he says. "You d-didn't." I start sobbing and he grabs my waist. "ow" I say lightly. He takes my hoodie off and my pants. He pulls me closer "baby..why" he asks softly. "Idk" I get out between sobs. He takes me to the bathroom and cleans my marks. He kisses me and tells me to go rest while he edits. I go lay down and try to cry myself to sleep. I love him so much but people's hate makes me feel worthless. I fall asleep eventually. I wake up to arms around me and a kiss on the side of my cheek by my mouth and an "I love you" I love you too I say in my head. 1: He thinks I'm asleep and I like that and 2: Im too tired to say anything.

I may add something sad in the future or something else with the harm topic but idk. Next chapter Adam's mom is moving in so idk but we'll see. Anyways hope you enjoyed it! Its kinda sad and may be hard to read but baiii

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