Moving On [Sequel to You Hate Nathan Sykes?!]

Part 6 - I'm Such An Idiot...

Nathan's POV -

Why didn't I guess.

I mean, how can I be so stupid? Of course it was Jay.

The way they were acting before she told me. The way they've hardly given each other a second look. The way they've been acting recently. The awkward looks. The limited conversation lengths. The time that they no longer spend together.

It all seems so obvious now.

I was an idiot to think she had changed. To think that she could ever love me the way that she said she did. To think she would only ever be mine and no one elses. To think she would stop sleeping with Jay just because she was with me. I thought they were just friends.

Turns out they were more than just friends.

They're friends with benefits. She went to him when she got bored with me. Wanted some more fun with someone other than me. When she wanted that little bit more which I couldn't give her. She was using me, just to make herself seem less lonely. I was just her way of proving to people she could change while still acting the same behind closed doors. I was the idiot that fell for her tricks and insisted that she was a totally different person. I was so desperate for her to love me, that I didn't think about the consequences of my actions.

I didn't think this through before I rushed into. I just wanted to be happy. And Kimberly made me happy. Even when she hurt me and made me feel like nothing, I still loved her. I still wanted to be with her. I still wanted her to be mine, so I could show her off to everyone. I couldn't have been more wrong about that.

She didn't love me.

She didn't want to be with me because she wanted to change. She didn't know how to change. She was always going to be the same person. And I would be an idiot to consider anything else.

And the baby.

That poor little girl is going to brought up in a broken home. In a home where the words 'truth' and 'love' means absolutely nothing to her mother. In a home where no one knows what's going to happen next because things are so unpredictable.

This is no life for a baby to have.

She deserves to be born into a place where she will be loved. Where she will always be taken care of. Where she will always be put above every other problem which exists.

If she is my daughter; then I'm going to make sure all that happens. Nothing will stop me from being the best dad in the world and treating my daughter like a princess. I'll spoil her rotten. Buy her far too many things. Spend more money on her than I should. And give her all the love that she deserves while spending every second of my free time taking care of her.

But before I did any of that, I had to have words with Jay. I had to know why he did it when he knew how I felt about her. I had to know if he regretted what he did or if he wanted to do it again. I had to know if he even thought about me when he was taking her clothes from her body or if he was only thinking of his own needs.

I had to know the answers to so many things. And I had to know them now.

It would kill me to hear but I had no other choice. Kim was never going to tell me what I wanted to know. And Tom had made it clear that his sister was more important than I was. And I wasn't going to find the answers out by magic.

I had only one option.

I had to ask Jay and I had to hope that he would tell me the truth...

Jay's POV -

I know I should feel bad about what happened between me and Kimberly.

But I really don't.

I couldn't be happier that it happened because it just proved to me what I already knew. Kim didn't love Nathan. She didn't even want to be in a relationship with him. She just wanted someone to say that they loved her, someone to keep her warm at night that wasn't a different guy each time and someone to protect her from herself.

Nathan was the only one stupid enough to be that person. He was the only one stupid enough to think she could actually change. He was the only one stupid enough to tell her that he loved her.

I feel sorry for him really.

But he should have thought things through before making his decision. Not rushed into everything because he believed Kimberly's words. He was a fool and he is going to suffer for the choices that he made.

That much I did know and nothing was going to change. Not once Nathan knew the truth...

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So, I'm sorry for how short it is but I've written the last couple of parts on my phone because my laptop charger decided to grow legs and run away to join the circus. Yeah, bit random/weird there but anyway.

I'm sure the whole secret was really obvious, but if you read 'You Hate Nathan Sykes!?' then you'll understand why I added that in. I thought that it kinda fitted the storyline but I'm sorry if you found it boring or were expecting it.

I hope you liked this part and you're enjoying this fanfic so far. I hope you continue reading and continue to enjoy it. I love reading your comments and thanks for voting as well.

I love you all,

Em :)xx