i.
they say my nose is too long
too bigi should do something about it
make it beautifulwhen i look at myself
in the mirror
i see a chimera
of a thousand beingsi claim:
this is my mother's nose
but that means nothing to themii.
you have
your grandfather's indecisiveness
my father says
one evening
while i cryto me
making choices
is like burning bridges
like chaining yourself to one pathmy father
keeps talking
and his eyes
you look a lot like your mother
but those eyes are my father'she already knows
i never got the chance to meet him
to check if his eyes matched mine
but i remind him anywaymaybe i should apologize
for my brown eyes,
cold instead of warmi draw dandelions in the battlefield
and cry while confessing a crime
i did not commithe looks at me then
and i notice
he isn't seeing me
just my eyessometimes
you even sound like him
you know?i don't
iii.
a young girl
i didn't know
stopped me
down the street
in a city i've never been before
and asked me about my auntshe said
i'm sorry to bother you
but i feel like i know youthen she mentioned my aunt's name and something about my face
i can't remember
i feel like a thief sometimes
carrying a face that isn't mine
meeting people who know me
and don't know me at alliv.
they say
you have slim hands
perfect to play the pianoand i think about
my great-grandfather
playing the trumpet
with the same
steady hands
that had held a rifle
during the Spanish Civil Wari always wanted
to play the trumpet
when i was a childbut
when i held one
it felt like a weaponit scared me
i put it down
never touched it againi tell them
hands like mine
aren't made
to play music