[POETRY FROM TONIGHT WILDFLOWERS BLOOM IN ALPHA CENTAURI THAT I WANTED TO REPOST HERE]
what do you do
with the guilt
you carry
when regret isn't enough?it's too heavy,
where do you put it down?you don't
you can'twe are all atlas
we can't put down the world
we are meant to carry,but that's not the answer
you want to hear, is it?the world will claim:
this is your guilt;
yours, not mine
(and they would be right)have you ever asked yourself why do we use possessive pronouns on guilt?
i have
guilt is a possession
a very precious oneit means you know
not all your actions
have always been goodeven the purest of waters
can be stained with bloodbut
you can't let it goto bear it
you have to mother it
suffer it
accept itwith the same open arms
you hold your good actionsit's your guilt;
yours, not mine
(only you can mother it)you talk about your regret,
apologize a thousand timesyou clean the blood
on your hands
with itand still dare to ask
why regret isn't enoughi'll tell you
you talk about your guilt as if it is
not a consequence of your actionsbut this guilt is you
this is all your doing
(another possessive)this is the aftermath of
something
you can't take backyou did this to her
you did this to yourselfthe only way
to survive the guilt is to accept ityou have to say out loud:
i did something bad
i caused others harm
i've been cruel
i've been careless
i did some things
i can't take backyou meant no harm,
i know
i knowdon't try to justify it,
it won't stop the guiltit won't make you
any less guilty(mother it, suffer it, accept it)
repeat after me:
i did something bad
i did some things
i can't take backthose were my actions
these are my consequences
(i welcome them with open arms)