Blue & Grey(My Diary)

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Do u know the worst feeling?

It's when-

U just lost urself

Those motivational videos, inspirational quotes won't work

The sweetest chocolate seems bitter

The funniest video looks boring

The favourite music doesn't make u feel better

When-

The eyes betray and starts to shed tears

The heart just gives up

When-

U just want to run far away from this world, but u can't, cuz u r scared, afraid.....

Want a hug, but u r alone....

Those nights without any sleep, mind full of thought, can't get any positive sides, sitting alone, crying silently, no one to comfort. No one to hug and say "You'll be fine...everything's gonna be alright"

How much i wanted to have someone by my side, to let out all those griefs. But no one.....

Passing every single day was becomes hard.

Those words kept ringing on my ears.... no matter how much i tried to forget them, my mind kept reminding those toxic words.

How much i wanted to have positive, but failed.

Everyday, i wake up thinking it would be a great day. I try to start the day with a smile on my lips. But eventually, everything becomes fake. My thought become wrong, and the day becomes worse just like other days.

Everyday i wished to be happy. To smile whole heartedly.

But.....

It was never possible

I lost myself

Completely

In the

Darkness

I'm still fighting my best to overcome that

I hope to become a fighter

I seem like a coward

But still.....

A brave coward......

Fighting with the world

Without any sword

But with smile

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I just wrote what came up in my mind. I have been thinking those things for so long and at last..... published them. I hope u don't mind

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