What are these feelings?

Ew bologna

I hope y'all are enjoying this so far
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The next day
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Sals POV
As we walked to the cafeteria we went up to the lunch lady got our bologna sandwich's and sat down with chug,maple, and Todd. "Dude this bologna smells bad,You know I heard it was made from goat " Larry says gaging. "Yeah I thought last weeks was bad but this is much worse" Todd explains as he examines the sandwich. I then responded "Didn't a bunch of kids get sick from the bologna sandwiches last week?" I looked at chug which he was the only one eating the sandwich he looked at us and paused from eating his sandwich and said "Guyssss don't ruin today for me! This is the only good part of the day!" Me,Ash,Larry, and Todd then went to investigate the sandwiches. Me and Larry went to look for clues as Todd went to the science lab.

Travis POV
Today is the only good day for me since yesterday day was a disaster. Bologna day the only best part of school I got my lunch and sat down placing the church pan flicks aside. As I was eating I see Sally face and Larry walk around the cafeteria. My main focus was on Sally face...something about him makes me feel weird inside like it feels all twisted in my stomach. My face feels hot. Ugh Travis what's wrong with you! These feelings are unholy.

I've been wondering what there's feelings are I don't like then it doesn't feel right...but at the same time it does. I don't understand why I'm such a prick sometimes I shouldn't have punched sally face but...what he said to me just made me mad. I wasn't thinking at the time. They both walked up to me. Why are they walking up to me? What do they want? No one ever talks to me. Without a thought I say to them "I thought, I smelled trash.What are you flamers up to?" I responded trying to sound a little nice. Larry rolls his eyes and says "Get bent,Travis". I take a bite of my sandwich and looked up at Sal he looks back at me and says "Don't you have some sandwiches to attend to?". Ugh Travis stop feeling all weird it's just sally face! Say something! "You're lucky it's bologna day.." I responded as they walked away.I finished my food and went to the bathroom for alone time.

I sat their in the bathroom stall. I started crying my body ached a lot. Especially my face it was worse. I already have a black eye.I grabbed my note book out and instead of doodling as I usually do. I decided to write down a letter how I was feeling. I didn't think I just kept writing. I looked at the letter and threw it to the trash but missed but then someone walked in.

Sals POV
Me and Larry went around looking for clues we asked Kim for information and took some files and stuff like that.I stopped by the bathroom real quick. As I walked in a heard someone quietly crying. I went to see who was crying but then I seen a crumbled up note by the trash. It couldn't hurt to take a quick peek! As I read the latter it says

"I know we don't really know each other. And you probably have your opinions of me.I thought maybe if I told you how I feel,things could be different.The truth is,I can't stop thinking about you...I'm crazy about you.I think you're amazing!But I know these feelings I have are wrong.It's not the way a boy should feel.Shame swallows me whole just writing these words.My father would kill me but I can't live in his shadow forever. Just-

Oh huh just a bunch of scribbles after that.I wonder who wrote that. I put the note back down. I went up to the stalls and asked "Anyone in there?". Then someone responded "no duh,fuckwad.Buzz off!". It was Travis. Wait was he the one crying? "Travis? We're you just...crying a second ago?"I asked him concerned. He paused and responded "Sally face? I- No! What the hell? Can't a guy have some privacy?". I sighed "Why do you hate me so much?..."

Travis POV
"Why do you hate me so much" I froze for a minute and then answered "Because you and your dumb friends are a bunch of homos.It's sick! It's not right! God will never love you! Why should I?!" He responded "You know we aren't all gay right? I mean,besides Todd. Todd is super gay.But that's apart of who he is and I think it's wonderful.He's one of the kindest people I know. How could anyone hate Todd?" "Ugh!" I said as I looked down at my cross. He leaned against the door and said "Travis,Is your father pushing his beliefs on you?" It got silent for a minute then I spoke up "Just because my dad is a preacher doesn't mean he owns me! I'm my own person!" I said has I felt my eyes tear up. "Yeah but...Well,you seem unhappy,man." Sally face responded.He then continues to say "Are you sure your father isn't putting too much pressure on you? I bet it's tough being the son of such an intense man." I sighed and looked up at the ceiling "You..have no idea what it's like" I said feeling uneasy."I'm sorry,man" sally face said to me as he slid down,now sitting on the bathroom floor,against the stall. I rested my chin on my knees and said "Don't feel sorry for me,Sally face. I don't need your pity." "We don't have to be enemies,you know that right?" Sally face responded tapping is hands on the floor. It got silent for a minute. Why is he being so nice I don't deserve this his niceness." I think under all of that anger,there's a good dude who's afraid to be himself". He then says "Listen Travis, If you ever need someone to talk to or if you need to get away from your dad for a while, you can hang out with me". My face heated up and I had this weird warm feeling inside. "...why- why are you being so nice to me?" I responded."Well I don't think you're a bad person,Travis". I smiled at his words and said "You know, I don't really hate you...or your friends..".

Sals POV
"You know,I don't really hate you...or your friends". I smiled and responded "Yeah,I didn't really think so". Honestly it's nice listening to Travis when he's not yelling at me. It's comforting. He then says "I-I guess- Well I'm sorry I've been such and asshole. You didn't deserve that..". I stood up and said to him "That means a lot to me.It really does.Thank you. And what I said about being here for you if you ever decide you want a friend. I mean that.". "Don't push your luck,Sally face!". He says to me. Then continues to say "Okay,Now scram so I can have my alone time.And,uh..". "What?" I responded. "Don't tell anyone about this or you're dead!...Er,I mean just don't tell anyone about this,okay?" Travis explains to me while I stop leaning against the stall door. "I won't" I say to him as I walk out the bathroom. It's nice to see him try to be nice to me I appreciate it a lot. I knew he was a good guy he's just afraid to show it and hopefully he decides to hang out with me sometimes.