June 31 2020:
*I wake up really happy for some reason I take a shower get dressed eat breakfast grabs my keys and stuff and go to pick up ness I can't wait to see her I miss her even though it's only been a few hours I pull up to her house and see police cars and ambulances my face freezes I run inside and try to find her but what I see in her room breaks me*
J: no, no no no no no. NO! WHY?! Baby why?
*paramedics come in and put her body in a black bag*
J: WAIT! C-can I say goodbye?
*they nod and leave the room I go on the ground and start sobbing*
J: why ness please tell me why! Why leave me, I loved you and you do this?! I-I can't believe it your gone your actually gone. Why, why couldn't have been me?!
*I kiss her lips one last time feeling the coldness of them I walk out and they go back in i here her parents yelling for me but I don't turn around I just walk to my car sobbing once I get in my car I drive off*
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I drive home and run upstairs slam my door and start sobbing harder then ever*
J: WHY? WH-wh-whyyyyyy.
*after crying for a while I try to go to sleep but all I can think of is ness so I go to Dixie and charlis room and cuddle up to them and start crying again*
D: yo what's wrong? Oh and where was Nessa today-
*I scream into the pillow after hearing her name and they look at eachother in shook I don't think they have ever seen me like this*
D: what happened? Did you guys break up or something-
J: SHUT UP! SHUT THE FUCK UP STOP TALKING ABOUT HER I CAME IN HER BECAUSE I COULDN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HER AND I NEED TO GO TO SLEEP SO I CAN STOP THINKING ABOUT HER! So just cuddle me please?
C: ok...but can you please tell us what happened Anna was really worried. N- she never missing girls day.
J: sh-sh-she d-died! *I curl up into a ball and start scream/crying into the pillow* make I stop! MAKE IT STOOOOOP!!
D: make what stop Jae?
J: the pain. My love for her. My life. I just want every single fucking thing to stop!
*they cuddle up to me*
D: I'm sorry Jae but you need rest ok?
D&C: I love you.
J: I love you too.
I soon fall asleep wishing I was in her arms.
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Sincerely, Ness |J.H|
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