"Why you so distant?" Ariana asked sitting down next to Billie.
"I don't want to get hurt again" Billie said fidgeting with her rings.
"Me either" Ariana said looking down at her heels. "But you make me feel different in a good way. You make me fe...
"Wake your ass up" i groaned smashing my face against my pillow.
"What do you want Finneas?" I asked which came out mumbled.
"Come on get ready you have an interview in 40 minutes" he said leaving my room.
I totally forgot i have a interview today. Fuuuuuck im so fucking tired i haven't even get enough sleep last night. Not to mention i have a killer headache from yesterday decision.
Fuck me bro.
I finally decided to get up and get ready after 5 minutes and almost went back to sleep.
I lazily walked into my bathroom turning on the shower making sure the temperature is nice enough for me to get in.
After i washed up, i turned off the water and wrapped my towel around my thin body walking out of my bathroom and into my bedroom shivering at the cold wind that hit me once i walked into my room.
I went in my closet and search for an outfit to put on for today. An outfit caught my eye and i put it on spraying perfume on before putting on my jewelry. I grabbed my keys and phone putting it in my shorts pocket and walked downstairs seeing everyone waiting for me.
"About time" Finneas rolled his eyes. "Now hurry up and get in the car before we're late"
"Stop rushing me" i groaned getting into the car and Finneas following along.
"Well you woke up late and we're almost late because of you so yes i have to rush you" he said as my mom start driving. I put in my airpods and shuffle my playlist. I leaned my head against the window closing my eyes.
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I didn't know i fell asleep until someone was shaking me. I groaned opening my eyes looking out the window seeing we're parked in front of the building.
"We're here" my dad said as everyone start making their way out of the car. I followed along walking into the building greeted by securities.
One of the security showing us where the green room is and the other security stayed back to guard the back door.
"Here is the green room" Jason said (which i learned when he was talking with my dad) stopping at a door.
Once he left we walked in the room and sat down on the couch that was in the middle of the room.
We have 20 minutes left until the interview so i went on my phone to pass time.
I scrolled through Instagram liking fan posts and commenting on some. I love how happy they get when i do that shit so it gives me motivation to keep doing it. Since i have like 6.3 million followers unfortunately i can't like everyone post.
20 minutes later im sitting on a chair waiting for them to fix their camera.
"Are you ready?" The guy said
"Yeah" i nodded.
"Ok so your answering the same questions like last time but its gonna be different answers since its one year apart, got it?" He said
"Yup i got it" i said manspreading.
"1...2...3...go" they said
What is your name?
"Billie Eilish"
"Its october 18, 2018"
How old are you?
"Im 16"
How many Instagram followers do you have?
"I have 6.3 million... Followers"
I answered the questions as i did before then heading back to the green room.
"Great job" my manager Justin said.
"Thanks" i mumbled.
I took a water bottle from the mini fridge taking a gulp sitting down on the couch taking out my phone seeing who just texted me.
Zoe: hey just checking up on you?
Me: im doing fine just got done doing an interview
"You ready to leave?" My mom asked
"Yeah" i said getting up throwing away the water bottle.
We got back into the car driving back home. I went straight to my room and laid down on my bed.
Of course my peace was ruined when my phone started ringing making me groan. I sat up taking my phone out my pocket seeing Brandon calling me. I smiled and answered it.
"Hey baby" i smiled laying back down on my back. "Are we still on for tonight"
"Thats why im calling" he said in a guilty voice. "Im sorry i have to cancel tonight. My friends are throwing a party and invited me and i told them i will go"
"Oh" i said sadly. "Can we do it tomorrow"
"I cant my mom is having dinner with family and i cant cancel that" he sighed. "I see what i can do"
"Ok" i said as tears blurred my vision.
"I love you" i said
"Ok bye" he said handing up. Tears spilled down my cheeks and i started sobbing. I threw my phone across the room and rolled over so im on my side.
"Why did he choose his friends over me?" I asked wiping my tears.
I got up and grabbed my phone seeing its cracked but it still turned on.
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Wherearetheavocados: next week!
I put my phone on the charger before heading to my closet. I took off my clothes leaving me in my bra and underwear. I took off my bra and put on a large t-shirt that looks like a dress on my and sat down floor searching for the box.
I found the box and i opened it up and took out the razor.
I took a deep shaky breath before sliding it across my wrist watching as blood dripped on my legs and on the floor.
I love this feeling...
- A/n - I hope you enjoy this first chapter! Tell me what you think so far?
