Bloody smears
Days spent sleeping
I ran out of meds
I can't do that again
Something's wrong with me
I'm always declining
I think I might be borderline
I don't wanna be borderline
But the world is made of angels and demons
Life is either heaven or hell
I have abandonment issues
I have favorite people
I have identity issues
I feel so very empty
I say "I'll die if you leave me"
And I truly mean it
There's no me
Without somebody to love me
I cut myself
I try to kill myself
I can't control my emotions
Sounds like I'm
Borderline
I don't want to be
Borderline
Do you see what people say
About people like me
Manipulative monsters
I don't wanna be a monster
The representation
Is all villains
Usually, they get a redemption arc
But not before they destroy lives
I don't wanna destroy lives
I want to love and be loved
But I'm so scared
Don't leave me
I hate you, don't leave me
Don't hurt me
I'll hurt you, but don't hurt me
Hypocrisy
It seems built into me
Will you love me anyway?
I'd love you anyway
It's not manipulation
or maybe it is
I don't know, but
I can tell you why I do anything
Everything I do
Is out of pure desperation
To be loved
Love me, love me, adore me
Fawn over me
I'm kind and understanding
Empathetic and honest
But my personality is a lie
I'm nothing
I only do
What you want me to
Love me, love me, love me
I'm kind to everyone
Because I don't want to miss a
chance to be loved
Don't leave me, don't leave me
My generosity
My kindness
My empathy
It's all an act
I'm very understanding
But my sweetness is a lie
I try to be who I want to be
Who I wish was me
Who I wish I knew
But I'm never me
There is no me
I don't even know me
I just want to be
somebody
That everybody will love
My selflessness has a selfish core
Love me, love me
Praise me
Adore me
Tell me I'm the sweetest
Tell me I'm the kindest
Tell me that I'm precious
Tell me you'll protect me
Tell me that you love me
In return, I'll worship you
I'm a lost puppy
Toss me a steak and I'll follow you
I'll sit, I'll stay, I'll roll over
I'll shake, I'll play, I'll speak for you
Just tell me what I need to do
To gain love from you
And oops, I'll obey, mindlessly
