amantes sunt amentes || Ben Barnes

IX

-Nyx-

After contemplating my moments with Ben for an agonizingly long time, I figured it was finally time to let him go. Ever since I gave him the chance to apologise, he's been completely avoiding me at all costs. Every time I so much as look at him, he'll give me a certain look, as if he's forgotten all about the past few months. As if I've wronged him in so many ways. His eyes are stone cold, his chin always lifts up a little higher and he's shaped his mouth in such a way, it almost looks arrogant.

At first it hurt. Every time I walked past him, looked at him, or even so much as glance at him, he'd always give me the same face.

stone cold.

But time passed. Minutes. Hours. Days. Weeks. Months. Soon enough winter came around. Over time I was able to handle more and more of his bullshit, up until the point where I could sometimes taunt him with my 'terribly annoying existence', as he had put it.

'Oi Bennie! Still in love with me?!', I'd yell at him from a distance, with a smirk on my face. Afterwards throwing him an air-kiss -of course with a lot of stupid kissy noises with that-. I didn't think I'd ever seen that much disgust on a face. Like ever.

I was always being so annoying, I thought I might've been able to live up to his terrible expectations of me, and the best part of it was; I didn't give a rat's ass anymore. Dear old Bennie boy could take the filthy flirting, accusations, rumours, stank-eyes and -of course- overwhelming love for me, and stick them right up his way too good arse.

no.

just up his arse.

nothing else.

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-Ben-

Over time, I just fell deeper and deeper in love with Nyx, even with her nasty-comment yelling, taunting and annoying little habits, I caught myself just thinking about her all day, every day. There was just something about her, and even her annoying little habits, that made her linger i my mind for all this time.

The way her soft, brown-coloured hair swayed as she walked. The way she talked so passionately about the things she loves. The way her beautiful laugh roamed through the room, immediately lighting up the room as she let it out. The way she was just reading alone every time we were on a break, but was still doing it with a half-happy, half-focused smile on her face. The way she was exceptionally introverted, but still managed to have a way with a people, the way to make every single person she talked to, like her. The way she walked with a little skipping everytime she stepped. I was deeply, utterly and madly in love with her, but she couldn't return those feelings, she could've returned them multiple months ago, but I was just too scared, and now I will just regret it for my entire existence... no biggie.

I loved her so much I hated it.

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-Nyx-

After another exhausting day of working, teasing Ben, blowing him air-kisses and being my very'annoying' self, I drove back home to my cosy apartment. I couldn't wait to just plop down on my bed, watch some Adventure Time on Netflix and eat some really shitty chocolate ice-cream from the cheapest brand I could find in the supermarket.

After two of the shittiest months of my life, I felt like I deserved it.

little did I know this evening was going to get so much worse.

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-Ben-

Tonight was bloody awful.

My director had found Nyx's wallet, and asked me to return it. Of course it just had to be me. This was going to hurt my pride, a little bit... a lot.

On my way to her apartment (which address I'd gotten when we were still friends, months ago), I was contemplating whether ot not I should just take the wallet and take it home, so I could think about what to say for a few days. Eventually I decided just to get it over with. Might as well just do that, right?

When I'd finally reached her apartment building, I stepped out of my car quite grumpily, not paying attention to the pavement, thus not seeing the brick I tripped over. I stood up, feeling even worse than before, god please don't have let her seen that...

I reluctantly climbed up the stairs, as the elevator was out of order (as it had been for the past 2 years). When I finally reached her floor, I walked up to her door, I didn't know what I was expecting, but it definitely wasn't this.

A stifled sob.

Forgetting the whole breaking-entering scene, I barged into the door, and what I witnessed was just terrible.

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