pagtingin キ p. jeongseong

042

——— CHESCA'S

"huy, gabi na ah" salubong ko kay sunghoon na nasa labas ng bahay namin.

he's just wearing a black hoodie and a grey jogger pants. wala din siyang ibang dala kundi yung phone niya.

"wow, wala man lang hello?" loko niya at naglakad palapit sa akin

"edi hello, so bakit ka nga nandito?"

he smiled a little before putting his hands inside his pocket "chesca, i like you"

napatayo ako ng maayos at tumingin sa kanya. he also looked at me before smiling

"i really like you, for real" dagdag pa niya

"sunghoon.." i whispered, avoiding eye contact

"i know" he sighed kaya napatingin ako sa kanya

"wala naman talaga akong pag-asa, diba? Kasi alam ko na you're starting to develop feelings for someone else" he said. I can't even look at him! I feel so sorry..

"I just want to let you know about my feelings for the past years" he added

"years?" i asked

"oo, matagal na kitang gusto. tanga ko, diba?" he chuckled, fakely.

I closed my eyes bago huminga ng malalim. I don't know how to feel...

"I want to court you. I want to steal you away from him. I want to call you mine..."

"b-but I can't" his voice started to shake

"Ayoko, kasi alam ko na you don't feel the same way. You are happy with him and I don't want to be selfish just for my own happiness" he continued and it hurts. It hurts cause I can see the pain on his eyes

I've never seen sunghoon like this at masakit kasi i'm the one making him feel like this.

"kaya chesca" he held my hand tightly.

"I like you. So much but.. I'm letting you go" he looked down, letting go of my hand.

He covered his face bago tumalikod para hindi ko makita yung mukha niya.

"Sunghoon.. i'm sorry" was all I can say as my eyes started to get teary upon seeing him.

The joker sunghoon was no longer here... malungkot siya, sobra.

"pasensya na.. for not returning your feelings" my eyes started to water at hindi ko na mapigilan ang mga luha ko na tumulo.

Tumayo siya ng maayos but his back is still facing me

"Hindi mo kailangan mag-sorry pres. Wala ka naman kasalanan"

"But can I ask for a favor?" Humarap siya sa akin and I started to cry more when I saw his eyes, red from crying and his hair is messy dahil ginulo niya ito kanina

Hindi ako makasagot and just nodded my head

"can I hug you?" I didn't answer, instead, i opened my arms and hug him

"I'm really sorry, sunghoon" I cried on his shoulder and I also felt his tears fall

"Don't cry, I understand" he chuckled before hugging me tight

We stayed like that for a minute. Crying on each other's shoulder.

He let go before wiping his tears and I did the same. He laughed and wiped my tears away. Tumingin siya sa mga mata ko and a tear escaped his eyes

"be happy. kahit hindi sa akin, as long as you're happy"