neverlove

star light, star bright, second star to the right (too bad you were never mine)

The second time Peter Pan's heart shattered into a thousand pieces.

Star wasn't her real name.

It was Estella.

Stella.

Star.

A name that she outright refused.

Star was sixteen when Peter found her.

Living out of an old van and living the troubled life.

He took her up to Neverland, she said nobody would miss her.

(No one ever did.)

Star was the opposite of Wendy.

Where Wendy was warm and welcoming, Star was cold and calculated.

Where Wendy would read the lost boys bedtime stories, Star would recount the stories of her tattoos and how she got them. (And the fights that followed.)

Wendy was all soft curves and warm smiles. Star could beat most of the lost boys in a fight and when she did smile it was because she had seen something the lost boys hadn't. (Usually someone got injured.)

Wendy ran away from the lost boys, then became their mother.

Star ran to the lost boys, with open arms, then became their sister and comrade. (And maybe something more.)

Wendy was whole when she arrived.

Star was already broken.

(Peter wanted to be the one to put her back together.)

Peter taught Star to believe, to fly.

She laughed the first time she succeeded; a rare, genuine smile being directed at Peter.

He couldn't help but smile back.

(He thought her smile was worth more than anything he would ever be able to give. He was right.)

Hook was afraid of her.

The girl with the sword and the laser pen (one of her only connections to her past life).

She fit in well.

The lost girl, people started calling her. (Because she was lost, unlike Wendy. She was just like Peter and all the other lost boys.

No family to call her own except them.)

She became his girl, Peter's girl.

Nobody was stupid enough to mess with Peter's girl.

Her smiles were always directed at him. Never any of the other lost boys.

She became her name.

Star.

His light.

His life.

His home.

(Yet the nagging voice at the back of his head tells him she isn't.

That he's getting attached.

Lost boys can't have attachments.

Because attachments almost always grow up.

Wendy did.

But Star isn't Wendy.

And Wendy could never have been Star.)

Peter finds Ash when Ash is seventeen.

Asher is his real name.

Just like Star, he rejects his real name.