Hopes On the Streets

On my own again

I wake up early, I Write a note to Jack saying I will be back as soon as I can-

It starts to drizzle, The streetlights look beautiful in the rain...

I remember the song I sang in the theater- Before I sang it as Hopeful- Like- I Realize that I love him. and now... Now I realize and feel the true meaning- 

The Rain Pitter patters on the Pavement-

On my own
Pretending he's beside me

I sound Insane but I dont care

All alone
I walk with him till morningWithout him
I feel his arms around me

I just want his arms around me- Holding me tight... and never letting go-

And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

Back when he found me- I was scared- dying- and he helped me...

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever

I want him- I know I do- But he Has a girlfriend, and he doesn't love me.

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

Face it Charlie- There is no way- He doesnt love you. he never will-  I start sobbing

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangersI love him

I do love him, more than words can discribe

But every day I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
Without me
His world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never knownI love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own

I start sobbing against some crates in an alleyway, I know he will never love me, 

sometimes, singing songs that like define you makes you feel better- and worse, all at the same time.